Wednesday, October 22, 2008

Wow already 7 months...

As I drove past a sign that pops up the date and time I realized that its 10-22 which is 7 months since I miscarried my precious little angel... I still remember that day like it was just yesterday. The dream that was shattered but with God I can move on and keep dreaming and claiming in His name that one day I will be able to feel the joy of morning sickness again, the kicking that I didn't get to feel with Nehemiah, the growth of my belly, and the first cry out of our precious baby the Lord will bring us one day. I have learned that this is a growing period of my life that He wants to strengthen my walk with Him. Ever since the loss of Nehemiah I won't lie but I have felt as if I've fallen away from my walk with the Lord, but I have realized that the more I fall away the worse I will get. I am fasting coffee & any soda for 40 days and going to Him every morning. Today is my 3rd day and I feel so uplifted. As I remember a few days ago this scripture was said either on the Christian radio or an email or somewhere and it spoke to me.

At this, Job got up and tore his robe and shaved his head. Then he fell to the ground in worship and said: "Naked I came from my mother's womb, and naked I will depart. The LORD gave and the LORD has taken away; may the name of the LORD be praised." Job 1:20-21

I will stand in my faith, trust, put on my armor of God and MOVE ON!

10 comments:

AmandaHoyt said...

The Lord will bring you through this (as he will me) and we will stand strong Together in Hope that one day we will be blessed with more children. AMEN!
Hugs and prayers and encouragement are coming your way, Mel, as you fast and pray.
Amanda
P.S. When I woke up this morning I knew it was 7 months for you and said a little prayer that today you would be peaceful in Him.

Teresa said...

I'm new to all of this but have been following your blog and been praying for you. You've helped me get through my loss. I'll keep praying!

Holly said...

Hi there ~

I found you through "Bring the Rain" and wanted to let you know I miscarried similarly just one month ago. I was nearly 13 weeks along and found out my baby had died in utero. I'm still shocked that my baby was with me for nearly 5 weeks after his precious heart stopped. I'm doing better and find that this experience has brought me much closer to God's word. I'm a church goer and teach CCD, but I have a long way to go with God. I can only imagine this is the reason it all happened.

Peace and many blessings to you ~
Holly

Holly said...

I was just at my kids' site and noticed your comment. Thanks so much for your words. I forgot I had that blog listed under my name. I should send you my personal blog; it's a lot like yours, actually -- I just don't have it publicly listed. I find comfort in reading others' journey's through the same struggle. It's refreshing to know we're not alone. I've learned so much from "Bring the Rain." If you ever need to share stories, feel free to e-mail me anytime. I'm reading several books on grieving a miscarriage, but haven't tried the one you listed on your blog. I'll have to do so.

Take good care & many blessings...
Holly

The Baker's said...

Hun, My prayers are with you today,I to am struggling today as well as it marks 3 months for me since the miscarriage. God is so good, he has gotten me through, but I still have a ways to go.
I pray that he gives you and I hope in the future and peace as well as strength to get us through.
I pray that God blesses us both in the coming months with miracles.
HUgs.

CIRCLE OF LIFE said...

HI THERE , I SAW YOU COMMENT IN ONE OF THE BLOGS I READ WELL WE READ SEVERAL OF THE SAME BLOGS. BRING THE RAIN AND MISTYS AND SEVERAL OTHERS IAM SO SORRY FOR YOU LOSS ITS SO HARD IAM SURE BUT YOUE SWEET BABY IS IN HEAVEN LOOKING WELL WINKING AT YOU SAYING HI.I PRAY THAT YOU FEEL AT EASE AND THAT YOU CAN REST KNOWING THAT OUR FATHER IS TAKING CARE OF YOUR BABY AND ONE DAY YOU BOTH WILL MEET AGAIN, BUT EVERY TIME YOU LOOK ABOVE HE IS WINKIEING AT HIS OR HER MAMA AND SO PROUD. IAM PRAYING FOR YOU I HOPE YOUR DAYS GET A BIT EASIER. IT WAS NICE MEETING YOU PLEASE FEEL FREE TO STOP BY AND DO SAY HI.TAKE CARE GOD BLESS MICHELLE

Kelly said...

Hi sweetie ~

Praying for you daily as I know first hand just how hard it is to be without the precious baby you've been dreaming of! The 27th will mark one year since Liberty passed away (She was 5 months old). It has been one heck of a year..but learn from my mistakes.. Don't try to do this alone! I didn't have much support from family or friends (which is the reason I started this blog..I need to find some support) and I was really too upset with God to fully turn to Him. I think at times I am still like that..sad to say, but true. You can write me anytime! I LOVE that you are fasting on caffeine. I HAD to stay clear of any kind of caffeine with my most recent pregnancy, with Cheyenne because she has a heart problem. Since then I have gotten "addicted" to it again..UGH! So now I have to stop it again..but hopefully this time will be for good! I started a 30 day fast from tv, yesterday. So far so good. It was nice being able to talk with my husband so much last night instead of watching tv all night. Im trying to do whatever it takes to get closer to God! You are doing a good job! Keep your head up and know that we are praying for you guys! Lots of love!
Kelly

Misty Rice-Baniewicz said...

Those are pretty lyrics.... I like them.

tigrefan98 said...

Hi, you don't know me but I lost two babies early on in pregnancy in my early 20s. It was devastating. BUT I now have 2 happy healthy chldren, a boy and a girl, and I would not trade them for anything. I was recently interviewed for a national magazine about something totally unrelated and when they asked what shaped my experiences, I shared those stories in the hope other women would know there is 'light at the end of the tunnel.'

I believe it is God's will that He has two of my children, and I have two healthy living children as well. Experiencing the miscarriages has made me more grateful for those blessings. As it works out if my 2nd had made it (lost 9/11/01), I wouldn't have had my son almost exactly 1 year later. God has a plan for you and your family. If you follow His will he will never steer you wrong. Rejoice in his many blessings and know that HE knows when the time is right.

Meridith said...

(((hugs))) You are such an encouragement to me... missing your baby with you today....