Monday, September 29, 2008
Sunday, September 28, 2008
Saturday, September 27, 2008
Friday, September 26, 2008
1 Peter 2:24 says, “He Himself bore our sins in His body on the tree, so that we might die to sins and live for righteousness; by His wounds you have been healed.”
Wednesday, September 24, 2008
"I tell you the truth, you will weep and mourn while the world rejoices. You will grieve, but your grief will turn to joy." John 16:20
"So with you: Now is your time of grief, but I will see you again and you will rejoice, and no one will take away your joy." John 16:22
"I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world." John 16:33
These scriptures have really calmed my heart in many occasions. I hope they speak to any of you who have had a loss or just are grieving. I remember when I was discharged they handed me a paper of a "Prenatal Death" support group. I called the number which was in the hospital and the lady told me "ma'am im sorry but we no longer have those since some ladies wouldn't show up we stopped holding those meetings" in my mind I was just fighting inside saying "how dare they!" I came to realize that thru His Word and His tender loving care that I have been blessed with I will be in His arms. How incredibly is He!!! Thank you Lord Jesus for letting me cling to You! When I think of what I've gone thru I know I am not alone. I think of the book of Job, of how he was such a godly man who went thru so much suffering but yet he remained faithful to God. I think of all those around me who have losts loved ones. I am NOT ALONE!
Tuesday, September 23, 2008
Saturday, September 20, 2008
Friday, September 19, 2008
2 days after my 1st ultrasound I had an appt with my midwife for the 1st time. She was so sweet and talked to me about different things. She mentioned she was going to do an ultrasound in her room. I was so excited but in my mind I was saying to myself "go ahead even though they did one like 2 days ago" I went ahead and told her. I couldn't lie to her... LOL She said "oh ok well then we wont do another I will just do an examine." I said "oh well let me show you my ultrasound pic of my lil worm" she looked at it and said "lets do another one here because it seems as if the tech measured your baby wrong." I was so excited because I knew she would let me see our baby instead of being like the u/s tech... (no offensive to u/s techs, the one I had was selfish) As she spread that warm jelly she faced the monitor over to me and said look at your lil one... All I could say was "oh wow how cool" LOL I thought I would start crying but I didn't, I was amazed at what I was seeing. Nehemiah was moving like crazy and the heartbeat was just a going. She measured the baby and I was exactly 7w5d. She made me a follow up for March 21st.
Wednesday, September 17, 2008
After arriving to our next duty station I took about another 5 test while living in the hotel and still the BIG BFN. What the heck? Ok so headaches, lots of pimples, tenderness.... Hmmmm after moving into our new home I waited until I was signed into the clinic here in town inorder for me to get a preg. test. So I decided one day while looking for a job that I would run over to the clinic and get tested. As I sat in the toilet I did the urine test and prayed over the urine cup "What ever your will is for me Lord." That night I was cooking and "uh oh my cycle was starting" "well hello to you again" I thought.. LOL I gotta laugh with the way my body is... Thank you Lord!
"For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother's womb." Psalm 139:13
The next morning I went and took Destiny to the beauty "doogie" shop for a bath and cut and I sat in the car and remembered that I needed to call the nurse to find out my results from my test. I waited on the phone and the nurse came on and said "You are definately pregnant!" Wow I sat there and I didn't speak. I sat there in my car with tears and told the nurse "We have been waiting for so long" she said "Well congrates honey" I said "Well wait I started spotting last night" she said "that should be nothing to worry about just go to the ER" I went ahead and got off the phone and called my hubby. Well of course he didn't pick up so since I am new to this duty station I drove around the road he told me he worked at...LOL I got lost and then said to myself "Get to the ER" I called my mom and woke her up and said "Guess what mom, wake up, I am pregnant!" She was so excited she woke up my sister that was visiting and grandma and dad. I said "well I need to go to the ER cause im spotting." I got there and told the ER person my situation. At the same time im calling my church back in NY asking for prayers and trying to get ahold of my hubby. I decided to call my cousin to get ahold of her husband to get ahold of mine!! LOL As they checked me in a room they did blood test and also a cervix check. Cervix was not dilated and it was just implantation spotting. My HCG level was up in the 130's which doubled up 2 days later which meant all is well.