Monday, October 13, 2008

He prepared me...

Today was a good and quiet day... I was feeling alright while at work and when I got home I just felt down. With having gone thru a miscarriage I usually feel this way every now and then. It's a really odd feeling even though. It's like something is wrong in my heart but I just don't know how to explain what I feel. I just want to be by myself and if I cry I cry and if I just want to be quiet then so be it. Well today was that day when I got home. I started cleaning around the house and then hubby came home and I just ran upstairs for some peace and quiet (with the dogs). I went to lay down in bed just to read the Bible and my puppy decided he wanted to be up on the bed with his mommy. He is HUGE (40 lbs.) and acts like a baby. So I let him and it was if he could feel how my heart was feeling. He laid next to me and just stayed there until it was bed time. I got up and put them in their beds and came back upstairs to get ready for the night. My cell phone rang as I lay in bed to read Ecclesiastes (sp?). It was my Mom and she sounded tired. She tells me that my grandmother is in the hospital. This is something that happens every so often because she is a diabetic and has had a few strokes. She mentioned a blood clot in one of her lungs and right there I knew the Lord had started to prepare me for this. Isn't God amazing at how he prepares you to hear something?! He has done this to me more than once and I praise Him. I knew in my heart when I got home something was just not right! Thank you Lord for preparing me and keeping all of us in Your arms.


The Baker's said...

Isn't God so awesome and good, as he prepares our hearts for things to come that only he know and when it will be reveiled to us. I am thinking and am praying for your grandmother.

I totally understand where you are coming from about having your time to be alone and read and cry. I have done that alot lately since my miscarriage. There is just a void within me. Hugs hun hang in there.

AmandaHoyt said...

I'm praying for your grandmother and for you tonight, Mel. I know exactly how you feel - I've felt the same all day. I couldn't sleep a wink last night - thinking of Noah.
As we walk through this storm we call life, may God be with us. Amen!