Wednesday, October 29, 2008

Some thoughts...

I know I haven't blogged in a few days but my heart seems to be "blah." Seems im a little distorted I guess you can say... I have been thinking alot and being in prayer and feeling anxious about several things.

::Today is the day that Stellan will be born and I will praise Him and Rejoice for the MckMamma Family and pray that the Lord will give Stellan a strong heart and that he will be healed in Jesus Name. Amen!

::There is something that I am waiting for but I can't place it on here but I am waiting patiently (no its not a + pregnancy test... I mean I do want one don't get me wrong but this is something else) I will let ya know laters... Just say a little prayer that the Lord will open or close the door!

::Yesterday was our 10th year anniversary of us being together. Which means the day he came home from Korea due to the military and we met! Soooo awesome....

::I am going to start charting my cycles, etc....

::At church my pastor's sermon has been about Grace. This is something I am really having a hard time with but in time I will be able to know about His grace.

::I am trying to let go of jealousy, bitterness, and disgrace in my heart.

::My devotion this morning was in Isaiah 54:1 and a few other verses in Isaiah but this is the main one that spoke to me and I hope it speaks to others as well.

Sing, O barren woman,
you who never bore a child;
burst into song, shout for joy,
you who were never in labor;
because more are the children of the desolate woman
than of her who has a husband," says the LORD.


Lord you are my Redeemer and I love you!

9 comments:

CIRCLE OF LIFE said...

GLAD YOU ARE BACK ILL PRAY FOR YOUR SECERET WHICH IAM NOT SURE WHAT IT IS BUT I PRAY FOR YOU. I HOPE YOU TUNED FROM BLAH TO HAPPY.

ON MY SITE I HAVE BEEN AS WELL PRAYING FOR STALLEN AND I HOPE THIER IS A POSTITIVE OUTCOME I HAVE BEEN CHECKING LIKE CRAZY BETWEEN HER FRIEND AND HER SISTERS BLOG.

GOD PERFORMS MIERICALS ALL THE TIME IT IS THE ONE'S THAT WE SEE THAT ARE AMAZING AND SPILLS HIS GRACE ALL LOVER.


GLAD YOU HAVE A AWEXOME CHURCH AND THAT YOU GET OUT OF THE SERMON THE IMPORTANT POINTS. GOD IS GREAT AND WE NEED TO PRASIE HIM IN THE GOOD AND THE BAD, HE GRACES EVERY DAY GOOD BAD AND MOSTLIKLY WHEN WE DO NOT RELIZE IT.

MANY BLESSING S MICHELLE

Teresa said...

Wow that was really powerful Scripture! You are such a strong woman and it sounds like you are surrounded by many caring and supportive people. I'm gonna keep praying that this will be your month!

AmandaHoyt said...

So sorry you are "blah" today but so happy you found that verse and have found some comfort in it. Congrats on the 10 years together! That is awesome. Rejoicing with you on Stellan's PERFECT arrival today!
Hugs and many prayers,
Amanda

CIRCLE OF LIFE said...

"We have another brother!!!!!!"


Big Mac, MckNugget and Small Fry joyfully announce that they now have another brother!!

Our long-awaited little MckMuffin has finally arrived...

Stellan
entered the world this sunny fall morning
at 10:19 am, CST
weighing 6 pounds, 10 ounces
and measuring 19 inches long

As you can imagine, there is a lot going on here at the hospital. Please thank God with us that little Stlellan is here and be in prayer for these first hours of his precious life.

The NICU attended the birth--which went very smoothly--and Stellan is with the NICU team now. MckMama is recovering and, in spite of a pretty low blood pressure, is feeling well. She has seen Stellan only briefly, but Prince Charming has been back and forth between her and baby Stellan. When she is stable, she'll be wheeled on her bed down to see their new baby.

Details on exactly how Stellan is doing as well as photos of the sweet baby will be forthcoming. But, let's just say that Stellan got a 9 and a 9 on his APGARS and the NICU team has yet to find a single thing wrong with him...

Happy birthday, sweet Stellan. You are God's miracle to us and you are finally here!!!!

CIRCLE OF LIFE said...

http://h-r-ourfamily.blogspot.com/


CHECK THIS SITE HOWEVER HER SISTER IS BLOGGER FOR HER ON THE MY CHARMING KIDS SITE OK !!

GLAD TO HELP ANY TIME AND WE HAVE A GREAT OUT COME OUR GOD IS AMAZING , HE PERFORMS MIERICALS EVERY DAY ITS THE ONE'S WE SEE IN FRONT OF US THAT MAKE IT REAL.

maw82 said...

Hey girly girl! I am always praying for my sister in christ! You know I am here if ya need to vent! You need to read my new blog I posted today!! I think you mite like the end!

The Petersons said...

I think we all have days that get us down. But I think that focusing on God's grace allows us to have a peace that passes all understanding regardless. I wanted to share something with you because you mentioned being able to know about God's grace.

I was reading through 1 Peter, as Paul was encouraging the Christians to stand strong in the persecution they were facing. Emperor Nero was in reign at the time and was killing Christians in horrendous ways by feeding them to lions and crucifying them and burning them. Peter was telling the Christians that they should consider it an honor to be persecuted as Jesus was persecuted and to remember that they would receive praise in Heaven for enduring their suffering. In the very last chapter (1 Peter 5:2) he says, "My purpose in writing is to encourage you and assure you that what you are experiencing is truly part of God’s grace for you. Stand firm in this grace."

I stopped and thought, "What?! 'what you are experiencing' is persecution. Suffering. How is suffering a part of God's grace?!" So I did an extensive study on the greek behind this word "grace" and found that it is only used a couple of times throughout the Bible, but basically means, "the spiritual place you come to" through suffering. What I deduced from the whole thing was that the suffering that we go through itself is not God's grace. His grace is that He draws us closer to Him through the suffering. We are strengthened in our faith and come to know Him more intimately when we experience trials. Isn't that grace? That we don't go through trials only to end up worse off or even equal to where we were before. But that we get to a better place and know our Creator a little more deeply with each ounce of suffering. Understanding it this way allowed me to recognize my infertility as a measure of grace, in the sense that God is bringing/has brought me to a better relationship with Him through it than I would've had without it. And in the end, I will have a testimony to tell that many others will never be able to profess.

Now, I just need to get to the point where I can boldly say that His grace is sufficient for me.

I hope that helps encourage you a bit, and I'm definitely praying for you today. If you need any help charting, let me know!

And thanks for the verse you shared. I'm learning that the Bible says way more about infertility than I ever knew!

Genevieve said...

Praying for you...He makes all things beautiful in His time. I totally understand...

The Baker's said...

I will pray for your unspoken request that God will open that door for you if you want it, as well as the positive test.

I am havin some trouble with the jealousy and bitterness still as well, praying for you girl.

That verse speaks to me thanks for sharing, gives me something to think about.

Hugs.