Friday, December 4, 2009

Shopping Websites Anyone?

Hello bloggy friends~

I was wondering if anyone knew of any cool shopping websites to buy Christmas gifts. I have been searching Amazon, Ebay, and Etsy but I need others. I am not looking for anything particular just want some good sales. Where I live there is only Walmart so yeah I need to shop online!



Thursday, December 3, 2009

It is well with my soul

I love the song "It is well with my soul" because I remember that song when I lost Nehemiah last year. When I layed their on the hospital bed while I got my last look at Nehemiah was laying at the bottom of my uterus with no heartbeat I remember hearing the Lord tell me "It is well." After my miscarriage my mom bought me a CD from the Lakewood Church where Joel Osteen preaches and in it was this song "It is well with my soul."

As I think of this song going thru this pregnancy all I can tell myself is "It is well" because I struggle each and everyday with so much fear and doubt. I keep reminding myself that fear and doubt is NOT of the Lord but of the enemy. I have been trying to keep myself in the Word and praying that the Lord will be with me at all times even when I do fear and doubt. I have been pulling scripture. I've asked many friends what verses have they read when they were pregnant. *It is well with my soul*

See I have a Bicornuate Uterus (heart-shaped) that I was diagnosed with back in 2006. I was told by that dr that it's nothing to worry about. In July of this year hubby and I decided to see a Reproductive Endocrinologist to make sure that all will be well to get pregnant with my uterus. He did an ultrasound and said that I am not a candidate for the removal of the septum that parts the uterus on the top. He made it seem that its just a thicker lining on the top of my uterus. And I still worry... I was placed on Clomid to help me ovulate in July and August and I conceived in August :) *It is well with my soul*

I started seeing my midwife from my 5th and have seen her my 10th, and my 13th week and ever since the Lord has shown me that He is with me every second of my life and of my lil ones life as well. Because they see me as high risk I see my midwife pretty often and each time she is always giving me a ultrasound and listening to the beautiful heartbeat. My 13th week appt I was given a referral to a Maternal/Fetal Specialist during my 18th week up until I deliver. The procedure that will be done at the Specialist will be a Level II ultrasound and then he will monitor me due to the abn uterus. *It is well with my soul*

Yesterday I had to go to the ER (for a possible UTI) because you can't just go up to Labor & Delivery until you are 20 weeks. So since im 15 weeks I had to see the ER dr and was seen pretty quickly and told that my urine was fine. The dr thinks I am not drinking enough fluids which is true. They then said they were gonna measure my lil ones heartbeat which of course was a HUGE highlight for me :) Baby Blessing heartbeat was 146! I was then told to go see my midwife cause my ER dr couldn't get ahold of her to give her heads up that I was there so I went to see her and she thinks the same thing that I need to drink more fluids. GOT IT! If they could just stick me with an IV with fluids it would be easier! LOL Oh and get this she listened to the heartbeat LOL no I wasn't gonna tell her they just heard it in the ER are you crazy :) I want one of those machines but I think I will drive myself insane!!! *It is well with my soul*

Can I ask you to pray for me??

*That fear and doubt would be replaced with peace

*That the abn uterus will not affect my pregnancy

*That in Jesus name this baby won't come early!


*That I will stop freaking out for no reason

*My Level II ultrasound is the 6th of January

It is well with my soul,

Melanie & Baby Blessing

Thursday, November 26, 2009

Many blessings to share...

Hello my bloggy friends,

I know I have been very naughty with my blog and have left it to the side just because there is something HUGE that I need to share with ya'll and well I just couldn't come on here cause I wanted to wait a lil while more...

We are EXPECTING... If you read my last post in Aug/Sept I said I was waiting on a BFP. Well I got the BFP on Sept 22. I am now heading into my 15th week. We are beyond thankful!

I went to read my Thanksgiving post from last year and wow... God has shown me so much since then. He truly does bring JOY in the morning...




Sunday, September 20, 2009

I think im back!

Hello my friends!!! How is everyone doing?? I see alot of you have brought some blessings into this world and I want to congratulate each one of you! Also I see many that are pregnant! Praise God! He is awesome :) As for me well we don't know yet~I have been seeing a Reproductive Endo. doctor since June and I have been on 2 months of Clomid and tried a shot once but didn't do it the 2nd time since my dr is 2 hours away. I am praying for whatever God's will is! If I don't start by the end of the week then I will guess that I am preggos! And I will praise God if I am and if im not!! AMEN!

As of right now I am still working at the DMV,BUT the Lord has blessed me even more and has given me a part time job at my church as their secretary! I start tomorrow and will be part time there then school then part time at the DMV for a little while longer so that I can get a few bills paid before the new year.

I started school in August and LOVE IT! I am taking Public Speaking and really enjoy it! I am only taking one course cause I know how I am in school and if I take more than one I will be overwhelmed!! I was granted a scholarship for military wives and it has been such a blessing from God!

Well the Giants and Cowboys are playing and I want to enjoy some time with hubby....

Take care and I promise to keep in touch!


Friday, June 12, 2009

Been so long....

Hello friends! I missed you all I promise! You know I haven't been on here I think since gosh I have no clue... For some reason it was hard to come onto blogger and I think it was because I was just a little depressed but I can say that the Lord has really been working in my heart! I was a little to myself and in the midst of not blogging I found a new church and a new church family! God is good!!! My job at the DMV is going well but very busy to where Im exhausted everyday but it keeps me busy and im not "bored" like my last job ooooo and I work with Christian ladies! God is good!!!

Thank you ladies for checking up on me... I get emails saying that something commented and so i had to come on over and redo my page!

You know me I can't keep the same background for long so everything will be changing.

Gotta feed the dogs.... Laters!

**And i will be letting ya;ll know what has been going on with TTC'ing** God is good for He knows the plans for me!

Sunday, April 5, 2009


Well as my title reads "alot" because there is just so much to blog about... All is well in my end but my heart is heavy and hurting for many reasons.

I hope everyone that reads my blog is doing well as I have not been reading anyone's blogs because I have just not had the time. With my new job it's been so tiring to come home and get on the computer because I actually make dinner and by 8 p.m. I want to be in bed!

I tried out another church today and well it was a church that a friend of mine from New York attends and she has been wanting me to meet her there and so today was the day and when I arrived I kept looking around for her car. I walked in and asked a lady if Linda was there. She looked around and said she thought so. Well she asked the Pastor and comes to find out she was in a car accident yesterday evening and broke her leg. She is in another city in a hospital and will be having surgery tomorrow or Tuesday. Please be in prayer for Linda. Thank you!

Another thing on my heart is for Baby Stellan. When I run home for lunch everyday to let the dogs out and grab some lunch I always check on MckMama's blog to check on Stellan. My heart hurts for this family. If you have never read her blog please go by it Please pray for the MckMama family!

I have not said anything in awhile about my struggle with my loss a year ago and with that my heart is even heavier. I have been feeling fine for about 5 months and yesterday everything hit me like a ton of bricks. I was just sad. I just cried and I couldn't pin point what exactly was wrong with me. It's alot of things and I just needed to cry so I did. I felt that cloud over me like I did when I lost our sweet Nehemiah. Mother's Day is approaching and that was the HARDEST day of my life last year KNOWING that this year 2009 I would NOT have Nehemiah in my arms but in Heaven! Nehemiah you are truly missed and daddy and I love you very much.

Hubby and I are still trying and waiting patiently as hard as that is. I don't understand my body and well I have no control over it. Like I said in a previous post that I wouldn't talk about our "journey of trying" but I have to let it out cause it makes me feel better I guess. We tried Clomid the month of March and but still had to take meds for my cycle and then the Clomid since my body is not regular STILL! I am so bothered by everything and I feel as if I am going backwards. I don't want to go backwards cause I know thats what the enemy wants. I took a test yesterday and it was negative but with the way my body is I still can be pregnant and a home pregnancy test come out negative like my 1st pregnancy. So I will wait a couple of days and EXPECT a + one day :) Please keep me in your prayers. Thank you!

My last prayer request... I love my new job... but I have an interview tomorrow for a Government position that will follow with me when ever the Army decides to move us elsewhere. I am excited and sad all together. Of course I know the Lord has it all planned out and I just need to rest in His hands (im trying). Like I said I love my new job and the girls I work with BUT I also would love to work as a Government worker one day :) Please pray for God's Will.

God bless all of you! Congrats Abbie your pregnancy and congrats to all who are pregnant and may the Lord be with each of you who are still wanting and waiting...

Sticking with HEBREWS 11:1 always!!!

~i~ Melanie

Sunday, March 29, 2009

Miss me?? No?? Yes??

LOL I'm a dork yes I know...

Ok so I have been a very very baaaaaaaaaaad blogger... Well it's because I got a J.O.B. and I am T.I.R.E.D! So my new job is working Mon - Fri 9 hours a day and when I get home I don't want to see a computer anymore. See at my last job we had maybe 1 or 2 customers and well I was always blogging and searching the net, well this job there is NO internet and we have about 100 or more customers a day. Sorry for being a bad blogger... I haven't even been able to read anyones blogs either and because of that I feel so bad that I am not "following" like I should be.

Today I am going to try a new church. A girl from church told me about hers and I told her I would try it and see. I am excited and well even though hubby isn't going its ok. He has to go check on his soldiers that are out in the field.

Other than that.... My family came down the week of March 14th for a week and we had a blast. It was my birthday on the 18th and we went site seeing and then of course Nehemiah's one year was Sunday, March 22nd. If anyone was praying for me I want to thank you RIGHT NOW! All I can say was I had so much peace that the day went by me like nothing. Yes I thought of Nehemiah and of course everyday that goes by I still remember "the day" that Nehemiah went to be with the Lord and it hurts yes but I can say that I feel STRONG like never before.

Love all of you and again thanks for checking on me....

~i~ Mel

Monday, March 9, 2009

Hello again...

Yup I came back to bloggin! Sorry I took so long but it was a much needed break. Now that I do not have the job that I was currently at I don't want to really be online much. See at my old job it was SLOW and all I did was blog, decorate my blog, blog, read other blogs (I love by the way), read my emails, email, and go to other websites because well that is all that I could do in a SLOW job. I am sure some are saying well thats a really laid back job but for almost a year there it got BORING always being online so now that I am home I don't want to see a computer LOL! But I know I have to post like I said on my last post I was gonna blog once a day NOT!

I am enjoying a really relaxing few weeks cause on March 23rd I will be working again at the DMV! I am excited and it will be part time for the time being till another full time position opens up. It's a really small office and I am excited because they are Christian! It's such a relief to know that too... I am enjoying my 3 weeks off and my family will be here this Saturday for a week so I know I will have a blast... My step sons are coming with them so I am TOTALLY excited! My hubby is taking a week off so we are going to relax :)

I want to say CONGRATS to Amanda on her 3rd little miracle.... I have known about it for sometime but of course after a miscarriage ya kinda want to wait a little while to tell everyone :) I wish you the best Amanda....

Well I am off to crochet my little fingers away cause it's what I do best as hubby says... LOL

Goodnight and God bless you my friends...

Sunday, March 1, 2009

A NEW Day!

Where do I begin???

Well I am no longer employed... That means that my goal is to:

::Come to the Lord more than ever

::Be my husbands help meet

::Walk the dogs

::Work out

::Do my crafts

::Keep the house clean

::Volunteer at schools or hospital

::Blog once a day

So I think my schedule will be all filled up to where I will not be bored... What'cha think??? I am hoping that I can get on a schedule and not become a bum by sleeping in till late and just eating everything... YIKES!

I have a job that will start in June which they say is MINE but if that's where the Lord wants me it will be MINE in Jesus name, Amen!

I have family coming the 3rd week of this month and I would rather spend time with them than worrying if I will be able to get off for a week.

I wish all of you a great start of the week....

God bless and To God be the Glory,


Thursday, February 26, 2009

Giveaway from the Log Cabin!

Hello my bloggy friends...

Want to win some amazing nature items?? Well go to Shelley's blog and check it out...

I love butterflies and she has an amazing magnet that I chose if I win :) As some of you know I LOVE butterflies... Our wedding was butterflies so I am excited if I do win :)

Gooooo the contest ends on the 28th and the winner will be announced on Mar. 1st.

Good luck.


Wednesday, February 25, 2009

Wordless Wednesday

This pic was taken by my niece C. Her and my other niece N were outside walking and this is their shadow "walking together with Christ in their hearts!"

I PicNik'd it and added a few but what a "wordless pic?"

I love you C & N!

Monday, February 23, 2009

Maria from With Hope

Just wanted to let you all know (you all probably know already) that Maria from the blog With Hope has deleted her blog for many reasons. She has asked me to give you all her email address if you want to keep up with her.

If you want to reach her, her email is

God bless all of you :)

Valentine's Day

So for Valentine's Day hubby and I aren't really big on this holiday but I wanted to make him cupcakes cause I remember around Christmas time he asked for cupcakes and well since I am such a "good" wife (LOL) I never made them till now...

So here they are... They are my 1st cupcakes EVER and they were delicious and since I had extra I just made a cake to go with it... Since I've been following Sweet April's blog I decided to take some tips from her :) I used a ziplock bag and cut the tip and just had a good time decorating them.... I used the Valetine's Funfetti Cake Mix and it was YUMMY!

Cake you taste them??? LOL

That was not the only thing hubby got from me....

He has a new office at work and he has been talking about pictures of "his" dog! Ok so not a pic of his wife but of HIS DOG! So me being the nice wife I decided to get 2 5x7's of "his" dog for his office...

The BIG one from me was the book that really means alot to me since I watched the movie "Fireproof." I thought that maybe we could both do it...
And well my gift from him was going to Walmart and picking out what I wanted.... I really couldn't think of anything but a computer game so I got the Sim's Life Stories game and I am having a blast with it!
Have a great and blessed day...
~i~ Melanie

Saturday, February 21, 2009


So let me update you on sweet Ashlynn...

"Overnight, Ashlynn's oxygen has gone back up to 100% and has stayed like that through this morning. I have to work this morning .... how in the world am I suppose to do that? My hope is that when Emily gets there she will be able to wean again." from her website

Please pray....


As for the job interview yesterday....

It lasted 1 hr 1/2... By the time I left that office I had the biggest headache from so many questions... I think this interview was the hardest of them all. But God pulled me thru each question that was asked while my hands were sweating like crazy. The lady that interviewed me made me feel very welcomed and relaxed and introduced me to everyone. I will know more within 3 wks to a month if I got it or not. She has to interview more ladies next week and the week after that so we'll see... I finally came to the conclusion that God has all the control of a job for me if I just do the sending of resumes, etc... I am going to take a break from STRESSING and since next week is my last week at my present job I will be able to relax. My family is coming from Texas for the Spring Break week so I will at least be able to spend time with them.


Thanks to Misty for your "Krispy Cream Donuts" weakness... ROFL

Michelle I am so sorry to hear about the job loss but yes God will provide and we just have to wait on Him. I will be praying for you all.

Rachel thanks for your prayers girl! We need to catch up from our last messaging back and forth :)

April thanks as well for your prayers girlie... Hope all is well in your kitchen as you Sing and Bake :) I made hubby cupcakes for Vday and he LOVED them and I even used the icing in a ziplock bag and made my own designs.. Pics coming soon...

Jen thank you as well... I hope all is well in your tummy :)

God bless all you ladies that are always encouraging me!

Love, Melanie

Friday, February 20, 2009

2nd Interview TODAY! Prayer!!

Hello my prayer warriors!!

Ya'll are amazing and I thank you from the bottom of my heart for keeping baby Ashlynn in your prayers. As of today her oxygen needs are still high but again GOD IS HER HEALER and I will stay updated on her thru-out the weekend the parents update.

On another note... I need prayer :) As most of you know im job hunting because as of next Friday I will be UNemployed but I am praying that I WON'T because I know the Lord has a job for me BEFORE than! Amen :) So today is my 2nd interview and I won't say where just because I need to keep it hush hush for some different reasons. The interview is at 1 p.m. today and im nervous but who wouldn't be?? I hate that ONE question that they ask which is what I dreamed of all last night "What is your weakness?" Well heck I don't know... I have ADD but I can't say that because they really won't hire me LOL! So in my dreams it was a NIGHTMARE...

So please keep me in your prayers!!

Thank YOU ALL so much! I am blessed to have each of you in my life and each of you have a special place in it!

IN Christ,

Thursday, February 19, 2009


Hello my blog friends...

A family needs your prayers:

April & Ryan had a baby girl Nov. 12th at 23 weeks. She has been in the NICU for 100 days as of today. The dr's are saying that there is not alot they can do anymore. They are devastated. Please read their journey and pray for sweet Ashlynn! Lord you are her Healer and we know that by Your strips she is healed! In Jesus name, Amen!

In Christ,

Monday, February 9, 2009

My heart cries...

Sometimes we don't understand why these things happen to us. It's like so sudden that miscarriages, stillborns, and dying after a few healthy months is all around me now... I don't know what the Lord is trying to show me from this but my heart is crying out to so many families that are suffering.

I have been seeing this beautiful little girl posted on other blogs saying "Pray for Cora" and it just blew me away to see that she just passed away. A healthy 11 month baby that had stage 4 cancer. I read about her thru Misty's blog and I just had tears in my eyes knowing the pain of a little one that you love so much to going to be with the Lord in just weeks.

Please pray for Cora's family.

*Nehemiah wrap your little arms around this family for mommy k and make sure you find Cora :)* Love you baby...

Thursday, February 5, 2009

What would I do w/out ya'll??

Ya'll just amaze me at the sweetest comments you leave me! You all know how to encourage one another and for that I thank each one of you from the bottom of my heart!

All of you have a very special place in my heart and I know Nehemiah just loves to see his mommy smile every time I read your comments:)

In Christ,

Wednesday, February 4, 2009

Taking a little Hiatus...

Yes im taking a little break from the blogging world... I have a heavy heart of so many emotions right now. Sometimes I come on her and just and I look at the post a few hours later just to see that its a big o pity party im throwing on here and I need to stop! I thank each of you ladies for the awesome encouraging messages and they are really helping me! God did an awesome job at giving me all of you! Thank you Lord!

I need to really lean on the Lord more than I am on Blogger. Lately I think the Lord has been trying to show me things and all I am doing is on the internet all day long. I am addicted especially trying to find a job online.

As of my job status I am still working but the doors will close on the 1st of March but the last day of pay is actually the 27th of Feb. I have been sending my resume left and right and have not received one call yet but I have hope! I did a typing test on the fort here and I got 74WPM and this whole time I was putting on my resume that I typed 50WPM. LOL Thank you Lord for giving me the ability to type...


On another note my heart is sad and just all a basket case. My brother in law left Friday to a 12 month deployment and hearing my sisters voice was just so sad that I can't even explain. It totally reminded me of the day my husband left to Afghanistan, the day I saw a weapon straped to my husbands thigh. It just hurts and Fay if you read this know that the Lord has His arms wrapped around him each second. We will intercede in prayer and pray Psalm 91.

14 "Because he loves me," says the LORD, "I will rescue him;
I will protect him, for he acknowledges my name.
15 He will call upon me, and I will answer him;
I will be with him in trouble,
I will deliver him and honor him.
16 With long life will I satisfy him
and show him my salvation."

My cousin Angel was also sent for a 12 month deployment as well on Friday so it was even harder! He is married with two kids and they live here where I live as well so I am blessed to be able to be there for his family while he is gone. We will be interceding in prayer as well.

So there it is.... My heart is very emotional!

Nehemiah mommy wants you to surround Tio Hector and Cousin Angel and Cousin Jonathan while they are fighting for our freedom! Mommy and Daddy love you Nehemiah and we are so blessed to know that you are in His hands! ((hugs baby))

***on a side note I started a new blog called Healing with one stitch @ a time... if you'd like you can go on over and follow me. This blog will be for hobbies that I like to do. Crocheting has big the one that helps me heal most of the miscarriage. It takes so much off of my mind!***

Thursday, January 29, 2009

As of...

Feb. 27th I will no longer have a J.O.B! I am at my wits ends because I have never gone thru being laid off. I know who is in control and I know I need to leave it in His hands but at the same time im worried as I am human!

Has anyone filed un-employment? I am thinking of looking into it but I don't know about it. I am and have been looking for a job since the summer of last year. I have a few people looking for me too so I am blessed by that. My husband is totally supportive and I am grateful.

Please lift me up in prayer please. I am a little bummed since i had a budget going!

I'm holding on to this verse!
Cast your cares on the LORD and he will sustain you; he will never let the righteous fall.
Psalm 55:22

Wednesday, January 28, 2009

I will never forget...

January 28, 2008 will never be forgotten in my heart! This was the day that I called the OB department at the hospital to receive the BEST news ever in my life! These words that I will NEVER forget... "Congrats Mrs. R you are pregnant!" I am sure the nurse on the phone had no idea why I was quiet and crying... I said "Ma'am thank you so much I have been waiting for 4 years for a positive test!" She sounded so excited for me and set me up my 1st OB appt.

My heart is heavy and I am sad. I thought the grief was already on its way out of my heart but it's not. It's even harder when you receive one of these in the mail:

If you aren't able to read what it says here it is: "Congratulations your new baby is finally here!" (**I wish**) I really wish I would have never of asked for these type of things to come in the mail, but unfortunatly they are...

Ugggg what a day...

Well enough of my pity party! I will go a do what helps me heal... Crocheting...

I love you my sweet angel~i~Nehemiah....


Sunday, January 25, 2009

It's Official!

It's official that I finally decided on no more TTC'ing. (I can hear ya'll saying awwwww) No it's not awwww it's Praise God for He is the one that knows when it's our timing and I have to learn that I have to give everything to Him. I am not in control! I have canceled all my GYN appointments and will not take anymore medications!

Here's something I just discovered as I was typing this (Thank you Lord!):

We were living in NY for about 3 1/2 years because my husband is in the Army. I worked for a church that I love and am so blessed by called Parkside Bible Church. That is where I accepted Jesus Christ as my Lord and Savior and saw many things in my life change. When I found out we were going to have to leave NY to move to another state because my husband had to be a Drill Sgt. I was devastated! To make a long story short I came across this little journal book that would be my book for my church family to write their email addresses. You would never believe the scripture that is in front of it with a design! "He has made everything beautiful in its time..." Ecclesiastes 3:11 NIV

When I got this journal book I didn't really get it for the verse on it BUT I know why I got it NOW! Thank you Lord!
Yes I am about to put it out there... For the past few years of TTC'ing my life hasn't been the greatest. It's not easy, it's alot of stress, and it's(i mean stressing) not good for my marriage. I have learned that I can not have it my way anymore... The let downs I've had over the past few months have been painful ones BUT I've learned that thru Him all things are possible! I know I've said plenty of times WHY?, THIS IS NOT FAIR, WHY HER AND NOT ME, I JUST DON'T UNDERSTAND and I have learned that those words are negative and I want to live positive. Many loved ones have seen me pushing them away little by little but are always there to pick me up with an encouraging message and I thank ya'll for that. It's a time in my life that I have had to find myself in all of my grief, but while at church today I learned that GOD IS BIGGER THAN MY GRIEF! AMEN!!!

I am moving forward as I said before in another post... This year I am pointing towards goals in my life and with Him I can do it! I thank each of you for hoping and praying for a BFP for me. This will be my last post about TTC'ing!

TTC for me will now be called GITG... GIVING IT TO GOD!


~i~ Melanie

Thursday, January 22, 2009

What the heck!

Ok so forget about the private blog.... It's a pain and it seems that the last update on certain blogs are from the "going private" post.

Sorry for the confusion as I didn't have everyone's email address under the permissions section because I would forget, etc...

Sorry ladies...

Update on Grandma

Thanks to all of you who left me a comment!! She is one strong 82 yr old. grandma!!!

This update is from my sister:

I pray that all of you are having a good morning. I just got another update and wanted to let you know that we are continuing to pray for Luz Maria Maldonado/Abuela. We are praying for complete healing in her body, specifically her heart and that God gives the Doctors wisdom and knowledge as to what is best. Please continue to pray for her, the strength in all of us as family, and complete recovery after the procedure.

They plan to do a cauterization, stent, etc to her heart this afternoon. She slept well and will undergo this procedure today. Mom is waiting for the doctor to make a final decision.

Keep your prayers coming!!! To God be the Glory!!!

We love your Abuela...

Wednesday, January 21, 2009

Please pray for my family!

Hello my awesome prayer warriors!

Thank you Amanda and Maria for posting prayer requests for my grandma, Luz Maria.

My grandma suffered a mild heart attack today and the Dr.'s were worried about a blood clot. The results came back NEGATIVE for a blood clot. (there's that word again but it's a good thing:) She has been transported to a bigger and better hospital and is being taken care of quiet well! Here is a pic of her that my mom just texted me:
Doesn't she look good after having a mild heart attack??? My sister did a call down while I tried to hold back the tears while at work and we all interceded in prayer as soon as my customers left. Thanks to all who are and will be praying for my grandma. Tomorrow is the day where they will figure out what to do as she has been having many episodes of fainting. She is a Diabetic with heart problems and High blood pressure as well and has had about 2 strokes. (Love you Abuela!)

Also if each of you all can keep my sister, Fay, in your prayers and her family (16yr, 8yr, and 3yr old). My brother in law deploys in just **a little while** to the middle east and we are needing lots of prayers as this is my sisters first time experiencing this him gone. He will be gone from 12 to 15 months the most. The date was later in Feb. but they just moved it to just **a little while**. (**security reasons**) May the Lord bring them peace and comfort to all of them and may he have a safe trip there and safe while he is deployed. Praise God that they just moved close to my mom in Texas and we are just 10 hours away!

Also if you would keep my aunt, Sonia, in your prayers. I just found out from my mom that she is feeling depressed and finally went to the dr about this issue. I think the enemy is really using a few of us in the "depressed" department... I am struggling and it seems that my family is too.

Please ladies pray for us. We are enduring alot at this time and may the Lord bring healing into all of our hearts.

God bless each one of you who reads this post! I appreciate every thought and prayer!!!

Tuesday, January 20, 2009

Negative::Like always!

Yup that word again... Negative!

I went in this morning for a urine test to see if im PG and nope I am not!

It's okay though I will get over it! I have seen NEGATIVE for many many years now and again today! God will heal my heart as He always does.

Thanks ladies for your prayers!!! They are appreciated :)

Sunday, January 18, 2009

BFN! I hate home pregnancy tests!

Yes I said it... I HATE HOME PREGNANCY TEST and with that I will NOT buy anymore!!!

See with my 1st pregnancy that ended in miscarriage I tested with home pregnancy tests and all of the 10 I tested with were NEGATIVE but I had symptoms of pregnancy, but when I went to the hospital to do a test in a urine cup it was POSITIVE (weird huh?)

As you all know I was on 3 months of Provera (progesterone) and my cycles came every 28-29 days. They were weird cycles that would last for about 9 days of nothing but spotting but I thank the Lord for bringing on my cycle for those 3 months. I was told by Dr. Eid that if I was not pregnant by January that I would have to call and schedule an appt for further testing and to place me on Clomid (I DON'T want to be on those stupid pills!) They stress me OUT and it's not good for us when we have to "dance under the sheets" (as they call it) for like what 7 days... (Yes im venting...)

Ok im off my soap box excuse me...

So I took a test on Friday because I just couldn't stand my heart racing with so much anxiety since I am actually a week late already, so I ran to the PX and bought the digital, expensive ,$14.00, with 2 tests box and boom NEGATIVE.... Just like that... I hate those stupid sticks... They really suck!!! Sorry ladies please bear with me im in one of those moods!!! Maybe I am PMS'ing whoooooooooooo freakin knows.. LOL

So I will call in the morning so that I can do a test in the hospital...The only symptom I have is my face is breaking out which WAS a sign when I was preggo the 1st time.

Lord please help my attitude!

Love ya'll!!! Have a wonderful Sunday... :)

If I am PMS'ing here is a shirt I should be wearing.... LOL

Thursday, January 15, 2009

Quiet Time with God

Ladies... Do I have your attention?? I hope so...

I met a lady in 2004 before I became a Christian and I am telling you that the Lord had picked out this sweet lady in order for me to understand and start being my "husbands help meet." She was a lady in my church in NY that was starting a Bible Study for woman. She named it the Titus 2 Bible Study. I was not sure at first about it as it was described as "3Likewise, teach the older women to be reverent in the way they live, not to be slanderers or addicted to much wine, but to teach what is good. 4Then they can train the younger women to love their husbands and children, 5to be self-controlled and pure, to be busy at home, to be kind, and to be subject to their husbands, so that no one will malign the word of God." Titus 2:3-5

In Nov. of 2004 I accepted my Lord & Savior and from there I decided to join this Bible Study. I remember how my life was at that time, how my marriage was on the rocks, but I was finally understanding that God was the center of our marriage and that thru Him all things are possible.

My heart was hard once I started this Bible study as I my marriage was hurting from many issues. One thing that I learned alot from Margie was how to come to the Lord and have your Quiet Time with Him!

I want to share the way she taught me and others:

Day 1 - Psalms (read a chapter from Psalms)

Day 2 - Confession (confess 3 things or more to Him)

Day 3 - Old Testament (read a chapter from the O.T.)

Day 4 - Thanksgiving (thank Him for any praises, etc.)

Day 5 - New Testament (read a chapter from the N.T.)

Day 6 - Requests (prayer requests for yourself or others)

Day 7 - Proverbs (read a chapter from Proverbs)

Day 8 - Listen (wait patiently and listen for Him)

She also writes:

*Keep it like an appointment, because it is!

*Guard it as a date with your lover, because it is!

*Keep Bible, pen, notebook, coffee/tea cup, reading glasses & shawl together in your "closet."

*Journal - date, section, a few key thoughts at least to help you focus and remember.

*Jot down any distracting thoughts in margin of journal.

I hope that this helps each one of you in your walk with the Lord. When I accepted Him into my heart I didn't know if I was praying right... I know there is no such thing as how to pray but this gave me light and till this day I can say that I am learning so much!

God bless all of you...

~i~ Melanie

Tuesday, January 13, 2009

Before His Throne Prayer Blog

Hi ladies,

If you haven't yet seen the prayer blog that Aspiemom started up go to Before His Throne. Amanda and I are contributors to this blog as well so if you have any prayer request or praise reports please let either of us know. Our emails are on the blog so that you can email us the requests.

If you would like to place the blog button on your page please do so (the HTML code is there somewhere).

Thanks ladies for your prayers in advance!

Monday, January 12, 2009

Our King!

Here is our American Pitbull Terrier, King, that just turned 7 months (55 lbs)!

My husband has always wanted a Pit and well last July we decided on looking for one. Of course we have heard horror stories about pit bulls but in my experience with all pit bulls I've been around they seem to be good. I have been a person that has never been scared around any type of dogs especially this breed. He is a very caring pup and even though he is hyper he is our baby!
This is a pic that I took with my new cell phone (LG LOTUS! awesome cell) in our car coming back from Texas. He just wanted mommy to sit in the back seat with him! He is a B-A-B-Y!

Sunday, January 11, 2009

I've been tagged!

I've been tagged by Amanda... I tell ya she keeps me on my toes, but I LOVE it!!!
(smile :) Amanda)

Here are the rules:

1) Link to the person who tagged you.
2) Post the rules on your blog (copy and paste 1-6).
3) Write 6 random things about yourself.
4) Tag 6 people at the end of your post and link to them.
5) Let each person know they have been tagged and leave a comment on their blog.
6) Let the tagger know when your entry is up.

So here goes the 6 random things about me:

1. I have a long 2nd toe! LOL

2. I love to crochet different things. It has been a healing instrument for me!

3. I always have to talk to my mother before I go to sleep! If we don't get a chance she or I ends up texting messaging saying "goodnight!"

4. I went to the Dominican Republic on a missions trip with my church in NY. (will post about the mission in a few more posts.)

5. I would like to be a Special Education aide or teacher one day! (something the Lord has been laying in my heart)

6. I read the New Living Translation Bible!

Ok now to tag 6 of you....



Saturday, January 10, 2009

Moving Forward

I just added a new song onto my blog called "Moving Forward" by Mission 242 (I think).

This song has spoken to me lately... Alot of Praise & Worship songs have spoken to me lately and I love that feeling! The title of this song explains it all... I hope it speaks to you as well....

I am Moving Forward in 2009....

Friday, January 9, 2009

What can I post about today??

Well well well... It's 10 p.m. my time and I'm bored but I want to post something cause I'm bored! LOL (Ok im really tired so im giggly... ;)

Soooo something I would love for ya'll to be in prayer about for me is...... Now that my blog is private I can write whatever is on my heart! Tomorrow AF (cycle) should show her face if not Sunday if not then during the week who knows since I'm one that is IRREGULAR! As most of you know I was on Provera (progesterone pills) so that I could get a cycle every month and thank God it helped me get my cycle every 28 days for 3 months! I remember my GYN telling me that I could possibly get pregnant while being on those pills and it wouldn't harm the baby. She placed me on them for 3 months like I said and then she wanted to see me in January (this month) to then place me on Clomid. Well I haven't called the office as of yet just cause I don't know if im pregnant..... I am HOPING FOR A BFP (big fat positive).... Will you join me in prayer please?!??!

Another prayer I would ask for is as I start this new year out with a budget for the 1st time EVER that the Lord will give me peace, guide me, and strengthen me as I pay off my debt that I have had for years. This debt has been with me since before I met my husband (10 years). Some of you may know that I am trying to find a new job and well I think they are checking my credit and so that is probably why I'm not getting a job. I really wish they wouldn't check my credit but I know they have a policy they have to go by and well it's my fault.

Well I'm feeling a little sleepy now so I guess I will go snuggle with hubby...

Goodnight ladies...

God bless all of you and thank you in advance for your prayers! ~Melanie

Thursday, January 8, 2009

Husband Tag

I've been tagged by Amanda!

This tag is a "husband tag" so here I go...

5 Things Ralph Loves:

1. Lord & Savior
2. Me
3. His 2 boys
4. New York Yankees
5. The remote control (errrr)

5 Things on Ralph's "To Do" List:

1. watch football
2. watch the NY Yankees
3. sleep
4. watch tv (I know its the same as 1&2 but thats all he does!)
5. yell at drill sgts & privates (LOL seriously)

5 Foods Ralph Enjoys:

1. Puerto Rican food
2. Shrimp
3. Pizza
4. NY Cheesecake
5. Steak from Outback

5 Things You May Not Know About Ralph:

1. He is 8 years older than me
2. He has 2 boys, 16 & 11 yr old
3. He is from the Bronx
4. Has been in the Army for 16 years
5. He loves his pitbull pup, King

5 Quirky Things About Ralph:

1. He loves all type of music (he always says he was born in the wrong era)
2. He won't go to bed until im in bed
3. He is very picky
4. He takes the remote EVERYWHERE!
5. He sings crazy songs that he makes up (Amanda knows what im talking about she heard him!) LOL
This was really fun... Thanks for sharing Amanda!

PROXIMITY award from Rene!

This is one meaningful award! Thanks again Rene!!!

I got another bloggy award and well since I LOVE butterflies I'm all over this award!

Thanks to Rene for rewarding me this blog award!!!

The award is for PROXIMITY and it's explained this way:

"This blog invests and believes in PROXIMITY - nearness in space, time and relationships! These blogs are exceedingly charming. These kind bloggers aim to find and be friends. They are not interested in prizes or self-aggrandizement. Our hope is that when the ribbons of these prizes are cut, even more friendships are propagated. Please give more attention to these writers! Deliver this award to eight bloggers who must choose eight more and include this cleverly-written text into the body of their award."

Since this blog is very meaningful and all of you wonderful ladies have always been there for me there is NO way I can pick just 8, so with that said I am breaking the rules to this YES but its ok... So please who ever reads this its for you too!!!

Love all of you and may the year 2009 bring all of you many blessings....


Tuesday, January 6, 2009

Yes, I've been MIA...

Hello to all my blog readers...

Yes I know I know I've been MIA and I am soooo sorry for not posting since before Christmas. I have been busy and was vacationing in Texas for 2 weeks! I had a fantastic time with family and friends and celebrated His birth and the New Years with such heart-warming family. Christmas Eve and New Years Eve was a little hard for me but the Lord gave me strength and I am MOVING FORWARD in 2009!

I made lots of New Years resolutions and am trying to stick by them daily! My #1 resolution that I will share is to have a "closer relationship with my Lord & Savior and to have a thirst for Him!"

I thought I would privatize my blog but I am going to wait a few more days till I get things together and update my blog.

Well I am a little lost for words right now since I am listening to praise and worship songs and I need to get on my knees and go to the Lord!