Waiting Patiently With an Angel in Heaven

Please vote for my baby!

2010-09-01T14:53:00.001-07:00

Hello my bloggy friends....

I just signed up Elanie for a contest and all I need is for you to go to this link http://www.kdhnews.com/babyohbaby/ and go to the "E" and find her name and click on the Free Vote. You can vote starting today, Sept 1st thru the 30th of Sept. You can only vote once a day from the same computer since they count the votes by the IP address. I also found out that you can NOT vote from your cell.

We would appreciate all the votes we can get!

Thanks and I will keep ya'll updated :)

In Christ,
Melanie & Elanie

Prayers for Grandma

2010-08-26T20:34:00.000-07:00

Hello my bloggy friends,

We are asking for everyones prayers for my Grandma Maria who is in the hospital. She has been there since last Thursday with heart problems, chest pain, and an episode of a seizure. She is a diabetic and has heart problems. She is in her 80's and she has lived a long life! She is such a strong woman that I just know she can pull thru but this is the weakest I have seen her. Right now they are testing her for many things. We know there is a valve in her heart that is slowly closing. They are afraid of doing an open heart surgery because of her others medical problems and because of her age.

Please pray for all of us for strength and comfort as we go thru all of this...

Thanks in advance for your prayers!

Love,
Melanie

She is here... she's been here... lol

2010-08-21T16:26:00.000-07:00

I know a little late but she has finally arrived!

Elanie Rosaluz...

...was born on June 6th @ 9:02 p.m. weighing in at 8lbs 14 oz and measuring at 19 inches.

We are so so blessed and give God all the glory for He is magnificent...

Sorry I haven't updated anyone but MAN is life busy now...

Hubby is back overseas and we are praying for his safe return home next year!

God bless you all and THANK you from the bottom of our hearts for all the prayers that were said after I miscarried in 2008, while we were trying, and thru the pregnancy.

Love you all!

Birth story to come shortly! :)

I hope ya'll are still reading my blog LOL

Awaiting His arrival and Her arrival :)

2010-06-01T21:49:00.000-07:00

Hey everyone...

This will be a quick post! Well today was my last dr's appt and I have not dilated anything.... Frustrating BUT I know why now.... Hubby is coming for her birth :) I had to do a Red Cross message just to get him to fly out SOON. I will be induced on Sunday at 10pm so please pray for us...

I am praying that Elanie comes when the Lord wants her to come and that if hubby is here well so be it but if he isn't well it's all in His timing not ours!

Just waiting for my hubby's phone call to let me know the flight details :)

One happy wife and soon to be momma!

Pray for us please :)

She isn't ready, but Mommy is....

2010-05-27T14:58:00.000-07:00

Hello my blogging friends,

Sorry about not blogging... I have been so busy with so much that I don't even know where to start. From reading my last post I was still in Missouri and we had just found out of my placenta problem and my hubby deploying so let me start from there:

Since the dr's in Missouri were telling me I had Placenta Previa and then they were thinking baby girl had IUGR (when baby isn't measuring correctly) my hubby and I decided since he had to deploy that I would move to Texas to be with my mother and family. We were so blessed to have my mom, step dad, 2 uncles, and my aunt come and get me and my 2 dogs and also help us clean our home so that we could turn it back into the military since I wouldn't go back to Missouri. The military was giving us a hard time with alot of different things to the point that my hubby had to just tell us to go ahead and leave and that we would see each other in a year :( WOW talk about the hardest "see you later" cause we don't say "goodbye." What we were trying to do was see him "off" to his next destination but I had to leave him all alone in out house. It was so so sad that I cried for days and still do :(

He was able to come to Texas to see me and his 2 boys before he had to depart so that was exciting :) He was able to go to my first appointment at the new hospital I am going to here in Texas so that was nice. He was only able to stay for a week and then I saw him fly away :( Being pregnant and having my husband deploy is so hard that I don't wish this on anyone! He has been deployed for 3 months now and we will see each other in July for 2 weeks.

About baby girl~Elanie~well she has not made her appearance YET! From all the things they were telling me in Missouri I no longer have Placenta Previa *Praise God* and she does not have IUGR *Praise God*. I am 39 weeks and 6 days today and I am READY! She needs to come on out...but she doesn't want to! I have been seeing some really good dr's and have found the one! He is a resident but its all good. He is so understanding and always asks about how my hubby is doing. Hubby won't be able to be here for the delivery but it's okay cause he will come a few weeks later :)

We can't wait to meet our precious little one!

We had an awesome baby shower and OMG I got so much stuff that living here at my mothers house is the hardest because there is hardly no room :(

I have some prayer requests:

*that Elanie will come on her own and that I will not have to get induced

*that my delivery will go smooth :)

*that my hubby will keep walking with the Lord and for protection

Thank you everyone that care for us so much :)

We love you and can't wait to post a pic of our precious little one!!!

In Christ,

Melanie

He will hold us together...

2010-02-03T09:17:00.000-08:00

Hello my blogger friends,

Let me see if I can get thru this post without crying (yeah right, a pregnant woman = crying). Alot has been going on in our life and well I want to share it with each of you because we are in need of prayers.

Last Wednesday I had an ultrasound done here at my regular hospital and the u/s tech explained that I have what they call Placenta Previa. She stated its lying pretty low and close to the cervix. Usually placentas will move in time as the uterus grows so with that I received a call on Thursday from a dr that I have been diagnosed with Placenta Previa. He said that I have to bring everything that I do daily to a minimum. Which means I can clean but not the way I used to, no intercourse, and well just laying low. I went ahead and quit my job at the church which they were okay with and have been home since last Friday just resting with my feet up, trying not to go up the stairs often, and just starting to take care of Elanie and I. Tomorrow I see my dr for a follow up. I am 24 wks and some days and we are hoping to be able to get more info from him. Oh and because of the placenta issue more than likely if it doesn't move I will have a Csection.

Then this last Friday my husband went to work cause he was called in by his Colonel and was told that he has orders to be deployed to Afghanistan in 2 weeks. Since it was Friday and the post was closing due to the bad weather we had he really couldn't find out any other information other than he will leave in 2 weeks. Mind you 2 weeks is not enough time especially now that I am pretty much on partial bedrest. This hurt me so bad when he was telling me that all I could do was cry. I asked my husband if he thought he could get out of it because of my High Risk pregnancy and he said he would try. On Monday he went in and he has to go no matter what. It's a "up to 365" deployment.

We are praying and believing that all will be well with us as we are apart for a year. It's the hardest thing as a wife, and a first time mom to be (the tears started) without having my husband with me. I will be moving out of our house and will live in Texas with my mom since I really can't do alot in this 2 story house and then on top of that I have my two dogs that I can't take out cause of the snow, etc... I am trying to deal thru this with God's strength and peace because without Him I would just be a disaster. My husband is at peace thru all of this and knows that its all in God's hands. We know that God knew about all this before we knew of it so we are okay with it.

Ever since Elanie has came into our lives in my womb our marriage has changed so much and its so beautiful. I will miss my husband so much and wish that he could be here thru out the rest of the pregnancy but thats not God's will. His plan is to be able to come for the delivery for 2 weeks and during the rest of the time he is gone to start building our house in Texas.

Please pray for us for strength, peace, and that everything will work out as we leave this military post with the house, etc...

Thank you all so much!

~Melanie~

Happy New Year and Pregnancy Blog

2010-01-09T15:53:00.000-08:00

Happy New Year to all my Blogging friends! I hope each of you had a wonderful Christmas and New Years and that 2010 will be the year of many blessings for all of you! Amen! We had a great time in Texas for Christmas and New Year and we couldn't ask for more.

So now it's official I went ahead and made me a new blog here of our little one on the way (add yourself as a follower if you'd like!)... As of today I am 20w 5d. I just had my Level II ultrasound on Wednesday and the results were amazing! Baby girl looks like she is growing in my whole uterus PRAISE GOD (they are now saying its a probable bicornuate uterus, so what that meant to us was it could be or may not be, but no sign of a septum or baby growing on one side of the uterus) That was something we were worried about but why worry when you have God by your side?!!!? Hubby and I went in "thinking" BOY and we were WRONG! So now to share the best news with his 2 boys :)

I got a touch of a head cold and am hoping it will go away soon as Sudafed makes my heart race really fast and it scared me so I stopped taking it and am just taking care of myself without meds.

Well I gotta get some things done around the house! Love all of ya'll and wishing ya'll a great weekend.

~Melanie~

Shopping Websites Anyone?

2009-12-04T15:34:00.000-08:00

Hello bloggy friends~

I was wondering if anyone knew of any cool shopping websites to buy Christmas gifts. I have been searching Amazon, Ebay, and Etsy but I need others. I am not looking for anything particular just want some good sales. Where I live there is only Walmart so yeah I need to shop online!

Thanks,

Melanie

It is well with my soul

2009-12-03T10:48:00.000-08:00

I love the song "It is well with my soul" because I remember that song when I lost Nehemiah last year. When I layed their on the hospital bed while I got my last look at Nehemiah was laying at the bottom of my uterus with no heartbeat I remember hearing the Lord tell me "It is well." After my miscarriage my mom bought me a CD from the Lakewood Church where Joel Osteen preaches and in it was this song "It is well with my soul."

As I think of this song going thru this pregnancy all I can tell myself is "It is well" because I struggle each and everyday with so much fear and doubt. I keep reminding myself that fear and doubt is NOT of the Lord but of the enemy. I have been trying to keep myself in the Word and praying that the Lord will be with me at all times even when I do fear and doubt. I have been pulling scripture. I've asked many friends what verses have they read when they were pregnant. *It is well with my soul*
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See I have a Bicornuate Uterus (heart-shaped) that I was diagnosed with back in 2006. I was told by that dr that it's nothing to worry about. In July of this year hubby and I decided to see a Reproductive Endocrinologist to make sure that all will be well to get pregnant with my uterus. He did an ultrasound and said that I am not a candidate for the removal of the septum that parts the uterus on the top. He made it seem that its just a thicker lining on the top of my uterus. And I still worry... I was placed on Clomid to help me ovulate in July and August and I conceived in August :) *It is well with my soul*
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I started seeing my midwife from my 5th and have seen her my 10th, and my 13th week and ever since the Lord has shown me that He is with me every second of my life and of my lil ones life as well. Because they see me as high risk I see my midwife pretty often and each time she is always giving me a ultrasound and listening to the beautiful heartbeat. My 13th week appt I was given a referral to a Maternal/Fetal Specialist during my 18th week up until I deliver. The procedure that will be done at the Specialist will be a Level II ultrasound and then he will monitor me due to the abn uterus. *It is well with my soul*
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Yesterday I had to go to the ER (for a possible UTI) because you can't just go up to Labor & Delivery until you are 20 weeks. So since im 15 weeks I had to see the ER dr and was seen pretty quickly and told that my urine was fine. The dr thinks I am not drinking enough fluids which is true. They then said they were gonna measure my lil ones heartbeat which of course was a HUGE highlight for me :) Baby Blessing heartbeat was 146! I was then told to go see my midwife cause my ER dr couldn't get ahold of her to give her heads up that I was there so I went to see her and she thinks the same thing that I need to drink more fluids. GOT IT! If they could just stick me with an IV with fluids it would be easier! LOL Oh and get this she listened to the heartbeat LOL no I wasn't gonna tell her they just heard it in the ER are you crazy :) I want one of those machines but I think I will drive myself insane!!! *It is well with my soul*
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Can I ask you to pray for me??

*That fear and doubt would be replaced with peace

*That the abn uterus will not affect my pregnancy

*That in Jesus name this baby won't come early!

*FOR PEACE!!!

*That I will stop freaking out for no reason

*My Level II ultrasound is the 6th of January

It is well with my soul,

Melanie & Baby Blessing

Many blessings to share...

2009-11-26T10:37:00.000-08:00

Hello my bloggy friends,

I know I have been very naughty with my blog and have left it to the side just because there is something HUGE that I need to share with ya'll and well I just couldn't come on here cause I wanted to wait a lil while more...

We are EXPECTING... If you read my last post in Aug/Sept I said I was waiting on a BFP. Well I got the BFP on Sept 22. I am now heading into my 15th week. We are beyond thankful!

I went to read my Thanksgiving post from last year and wow... God has shown me so much since then. He truly does bring JOY in the morning...

HAPPY THANKSGIVING TO ALL AND MAY YOU ALL BE THANKFUL FOR WHAT HE HAS BLESSED YOU WITH THIS SEASON!

LOVE & IN CHRIST,

MELANIE

I think im back!

2009-09-20T17:14:00.000-07:00

Hello my friends!!! How is everyone doing?? I see alot of you have brought some blessings into this world and I want to congratulate each one of you! Also I see many that are pregnant! Praise God! He is awesome :) As for me well we don't know yet~I have been seeing a Reproductive Endo. doctor since June and I have been on 2 months of Clomid and tried a shot once but didn't do it the 2nd time since my dr is 2 hours away. I am praying for whatever God's will is! If I don't start by the end of the week then I will guess that I am preggos! And I will praise God if I am and if im not!! AMEN!

As of right now I am still working at the DMV,BUT the Lord has blessed me even more and has given me a part time job at my church as their secretary! I start tomorrow and will be part time there then school then part time at the DMV for a little while longer so that I can get a few bills paid before the new year.

I started school in August and LOVE IT! I am taking Public Speaking and really enjoy it! I am only taking one course cause I know how I am in school and if I take more than one I will be overwhelmed!! I was granted a scholarship for military wives and it has been such a blessing from God!

Well the Giants and Cowboys are playing and I want to enjoy some time with hubby....

Take care and I promise to keep in touch!

~melanie~

Been so long....

2009-06-12T16:26:00.000-07:00

Hello friends! I missed you all I promise! You know I haven't been on here I think since gosh I have no clue... For some reason it was hard to come onto blogger and I think it was because I was just a little depressed but I can say that the Lord has really been working in my heart! I was a little to myself and in the midst of not blogging I found a new church and a new church family! God is good!!! My job at the DMV is going well but very busy to where Im exhausted everyday but it keeps me busy and im not "bored" like my last job ooooo and I work with Christian ladies! God is good!!!

Thank you ladies for checking up on me... I get emails saying that something commented and so i had to come on over and redo my page!

You know me I can't keep the same background for long so everything will be changing.

Gotta feed the dogs.... Laters!

**And i will be letting ya;ll know what has been going on with TTC'ing** God is good for He knows the plans for me!

Alot

2009-04-05T17:47:00.000-07:00

Well as my title reads "alot" because there is just so much to blog about... All is well in my end but my heart is heavy and hurting for many reasons.
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I hope everyone that reads my blog is doing well as I have not been reading anyone's blogs because I have just not had the time. With my new job it's been so tiring to come home and get on the computer because I actually make dinner and by 8 p.m. I want to be in bed!
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I tried out another church today and well it was a church that a friend of mine from New York attends and she has been wanting me to meet her there and so today was the day and when I arrived I kept looking around for her car. I walked in and asked a lady if Linda was there. She looked around and said she thought so. Well she asked the Pastor and comes to find out she was in a car accident yesterday evening and broke her leg. She is in another city in a hospital and will be having surgery tomorrow or Tuesday. Please be in prayer for Linda. Thank you!
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Another thing on my heart is for Baby Stellan. When I run home for lunch everyday to let the dogs out and grab some lunch I always check on MckMama's blog to check on Stellan. My heart hurts for this family. If you have never read her blog please go by it www.mycharmingkids.net. Please pray for the MckMama family!
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I have not said anything in awhile about my struggle with my loss a year ago and with that my heart is even heavier. I have been feeling fine for about 5 months and yesterday everything hit me like a ton of bricks. I was just sad. I just cried and I couldn't pin point what exactly was wrong with me. It's alot of things and I just needed to cry so I did. I felt that cloud over me like I did when I lost our sweet Nehemiah. Mother's Day is approaching and that was the HARDEST day of my life last year KNOWING that this year 2009 I would NOT have Nehemiah in my arms but in Heaven! Nehemiah you are truly missed and daddy and I love you very much.
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Hubby and I are still trying and waiting patiently as hard as that is. I don't understand my body and well I have no control over it. Like I said in a previous post that I wouldn't talk about our "journey of trying" but I have to let it out cause it makes me feel better I guess. We tried Clomid the month of March and but still had to take meds for my cycle and then the Clomid since my body is not regular STILL! I am so bothered by everything and I feel as if I am going backwards. I don't want to go backwards cause I know thats what the enemy wants. I took a test yesterday and it was negative but with the way my body is I still can be pregnant and a home pregnancy test come out negative like my 1st pregnancy. So I will wait a couple of days and EXPECT a + one day :) Please keep me in your prayers. Thank you!
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My last prayer request... I love my new job... but I have an interview tomorrow for a Government position that will follow with me when ever the Army decides to move us elsewhere. I am excited and sad all together. Of course I know the Lord has it all planned out and I just need to rest in His hands (im trying). Like I said I love my new job and the girls I work with BUT I also would love to work as a Government worker one day :) Please pray for God's Will.

God bless all of you! Congrats Abbie your pregnancy and congrats to all who are pregnant and may the Lord be with each of you who are still wanting and waiting...

Sticking with HEBREWS 11:1 always!!!

~i~ Melanie

Miss me?? No?? Yes??

2009-03-29T07:39:00.000-07:00

LOL I'm a dork yes I know...

Ok so I have been a very very baaaaaaaaaaad blogger... Well it's because I got a J.O.B. and I am T.I.R.E.D! So my new job is working Mon - Fri 9 hours a day and when I get home I don't want to see a computer anymore. See at my last job we had maybe 1 or 2 customers and well I was always blogging and searching the net, well this job there is NO internet and we have about 100 or more customers a day. Sorry for being a bad blogger... I haven't even been able to read anyones blogs either and because of that I feel so bad that I am not "following" like I should be.

Today I am going to try a new church. A girl from church told me about hers and I told her I would try it and see. I am excited and well even though hubby isn't going its ok. He has to go check on his soldiers that are out in the field.

Other than that.... My family came down the week of March 14th for a week and we had a blast. It was my birthday on the 18th and we went site seeing and then of course Nehemiah's one year was Sunday, March 22nd. If anyone was praying for me I want to thank you RIGHT NOW! All I can say was I had so much peace that the day went by me like nothing. Yes I thought of Nehemiah and of course everyday that goes by I still remember "the day" that Nehemiah went to be with the Lord and it hurts yes but I can say that I feel STRONG like never before.

Love all of you and again thanks for checking on me....

~i~ Mel

Hello again...

2009-03-09T18:13:00.000-07:00

Yup I came back to bloggin! Sorry I took so long but it was a much needed break. Now that I do not have the job that I was currently at I don't want to really be online much. See at my old job it was SLOW and all I did was blog, decorate my blog, blog, read other blogs (I love by the way), read my emails, email, and go to other websites because well that is all that I could do in a SLOW job. I am sure some are saying well thats a really laid back job but for almost a year there it got BORING always being online so now that I am home I don't want to see a computer LOL! But I know I have to post like I said on my last post I was gonna blog once a day NOT!

I am enjoying a really relaxing few weeks cause on March 23rd I will be working again at the DMV! I am excited and it will be part time for the time being till another full time position opens up. It's a really small office and I am excited because they are Christian! It's such a relief to know that too... I am enjoying my 3 weeks off and my family will be here this Saturday for a week so I know I will have a blast... My step sons are coming with them so I am TOTALLY excited! My hubby is taking a week off so we are going to relax :)

I want to say CONGRATS to Amanda on her 3rd little miracle.... I have known about it for sometime but of course after a miscarriage ya kinda want to wait a little while to tell everyone :) I wish you the best Amanda....

Well I am off to crochet my little fingers away cause it's what I do best as hubby says... LOL

Goodnight and God bless you my friends...

A NEW Day!

2009-03-01T18:14:00.000-08:00

Where do I begin???

Well I am no longer employed... That means that my goal is to:

::Come to the Lord more than ever

::Be my husbands help meet

::Walk the dogs

::Work out

::Do my crafts

::Keep the house clean

::Volunteer at schools or hospital

::Blog once a day

So I think my schedule will be all filled up to where I will not be bored... What'cha think??? I am hoping that I can get on a schedule and not become a bum by sleeping in till late and just eating everything... YIKES!

I have a job that will start in June which they say is MINE but if that's where the Lord wants me it will be MINE in Jesus name, Amen!

I have family coming the 3rd week of this month and I would rather spend time with them than worrying if I will be able to get off for a week.

I wish all of you a great start of the week....

God bless and To God be the Glory,

Melanie

Giveaway from the Log Cabin!

2009-02-26T10:23:00.001-08:00

Hello my bloggy friends...

Want to win some amazing nature items?? Well go to Shelley's blog and check it out...

I love butterflies and she has an amazing magnet that I chose if I win :) As some of you know I LOVE butterflies... Our wedding was butterflies so I am excited if I do win :)

Gooooo the contest ends on the 28th and the winner will be announced on Mar. 1st.

Good luck.

Melanie

Wordless Wednesday

2009-02-25T10:35:00.001-08:00

This pic was taken by my niece C. Her and my other niece N were outside walking and this is their shadow "walking together with Christ in their hearts!"

I PicNik'd it and added a few but what a "wordless pic?"

I love you C & N!

Maria from With Hope

2009-02-23T16:54:00.000-08:00

Just wanted to let you all know (you all probably know already) that Maria from the blog With Hope has deleted her blog for many reasons. She has asked me to give you all her email address if you want to keep up with her.

If you want to reach her, her email is mwalley82@hotmail.com.

God bless all of you :)

Valentine's Day

2009-02-23T13:18:00.000-08:00

So for Valentine's Day hubby and I aren't really big on this holiday but I wanted to make him cupcakes cause I remember around Christmas time he asked for cupcakes and well since I am such a "good" wife (LOL) I never made them till now...

So here they are... They are my 1st cupcakes EVER and they were delicious and since I had extra I just made a cake to go with it... Since I've been following Sweet April's blog I decided to take some tips from her :) I used a ziplock bag and cut the tip and just had a good time decorating them.... I used the Valetine's Funfetti Cake Mix and it was YUMMY!

Cake you taste them??? LOL

That was not the only thing hubby got from me....

He has a new office at work and he has been talking about pictures of "his" dog! Ok so not a pic of his wife but of HIS DOG! So me being the nice wife I decided to get 2 5x7's of "his" dog for his office...

The BIG one from me was the book that really means alot to me since I watched the movie "Fireproof." I thought that maybe we could both do it...

And well my gift from him was going to Walmart and picking out what I wanted.... I really couldn't think of anything but a computer game so I got the Sim's Life Stories game and I am having a blast with it!

Have a great and blessed day...

~i~ Melanie

Updates!

2009-02-21T06:42:00.000-08:00

So let me update you on sweet Ashlynn...

"Overnight, Ashlynn's oxygen has gone back up to 100% and has stayed like that through this morning. I have to work this morning .... how in the world am I suppose to do that? My hope is that when Emily gets there she will be able to wean again." from her website www.caringbridge.org/visit/ashlynnelizabeth

Please pray....

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As for the job interview yesterday....

It lasted 1 hr 1/2... By the time I left that office I had the biggest headache from so many questions... I think this interview was the hardest of them all. But God pulled me thru each question that was asked while my hands were sweating like crazy. The lady that interviewed me made me feel very welcomed and relaxed and introduced me to everyone. I will know more within 3 wks to a month if I got it or not. She has to interview more ladies next week and the week after that so we'll see... I finally came to the conclusion that God has all the control of a job for me if I just do the sending of resumes, etc... I am going to take a break from STRESSING and since next week is my last week at my present job I will be able to relax. My family is coming from Texas for the Spring Break week so I will at least be able to spend time with them.

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Thanks to Misty for your "Krispy Cream Donuts" weakness... ROFL

Michelle I am so sorry to hear about the job loss but yes God will provide and we just have to wait on Him. I will be praying for you all.

Rachel thanks for your prayers girl! We need to catch up from our last messaging back and forth :)

April thanks as well for your prayers girlie... Hope all is well in your kitchen as you Sing and Bake :) I made hubby cupcakes for Vday and he LOVED them and I even used the icing in a ziplock bag and made my own designs.. Pics coming soon...

Jen thank you as well... I hope all is well in your tummy :)

God bless all you ladies that are always encouraging me!

Love, Melanie

2nd Interview TODAY! Prayer!!

2009-02-20T07:31:00.000-08:00

Hello my prayer warriors!!

Ya'll are amazing and I thank you from the bottom of my heart for keeping baby Ashlynn in your prayers. As of today her oxygen needs are still high but again GOD IS HER HEALER and I will stay updated on her thru-out the weekend the parents update.

On another note... I need prayer :) As most of you know im job hunting because as of next Friday I will be UNemployed but I am praying that I WON'T because I know the Lord has a job for me BEFORE than! Amen :) So today is my 2nd interview and I won't say where just because I need to keep it hush hush for some different reasons. The interview is at 1 p.m. today and im nervous but who wouldn't be?? I hate that ONE question that they ask which is what I dreamed of all last night "What is your weakness?" Well heck I don't know... I have ADD but I can't say that because they really won't hire me LOL! So in my dreams it was a NIGHTMARE...

So please keep me in your prayers!!

Thank YOU ALL so much! I am blessed to have each of you in my life and each of you have a special place in it!

IN Christ,
Melanie

HUGE PRAYER REQUEST NEEDED!

2009-02-19T11:48:00.001-08:00

Hello my blog friends...

A family needs your prayers:

April & Ryan had a baby girl Nov. 12th at 23 weeks. She has been in the NICU for 100 days as of today. The dr's are saying that there is not alot they can do anymore. They are devastated. Please read their journey and pray for sweet Ashlynn! Lord you are her Healer and we know that by Your strips she is healed! In Jesus name, Amen!
http://www.caringbridge.org/visit/ashlynnelizabeth

In Christ,
Melanie

My heart cries...

2009-02-09T10:40:00.000-08:00

Sometimes we don't understand why these things happen to us. It's like so sudden that miscarriages, stillborns, and dying after a few healthy months is all around me now... I don't know what the Lord is trying to show me from this but my heart is crying out to so many families that are suffering.

I have been seeing this beautiful little girl posted on other blogs saying "Pray for Cora" and it just blew me away to see that she just passed away. A healthy 11 month baby that had stage 4 cancer. I read about her thru Misty's blog and I just had tears in my eyes knowing the pain of a little one that you love so much to going to be with the Lord in just weeks.

Please pray for Cora's family.

*Nehemiah wrap your little arms around this family for mommy k and make sure you find Cora :)* Love you baby...

What would I do w/out ya'll??

2009-02-05T14:43:00.000-08:00

Ya'll just amaze me at the sweetest comments you leave me! You all know how to encourage one another and for that I thank each one of you from the bottom of my heart!

All of you have a very special place in my heart and I know Nehemiah just loves to see his mommy smile every time I read your comments:)

In Christ,

Melanie

Taking a little Hiatus...

2009-02-04T18:25:00.000-08:00

Yes im taking a little break from the blogging world... I have a heavy heart of so many emotions right now. Sometimes I come on her and just let.it.all.out and I look at the post a few hours later just to see that its a big o pity party im throwing on here and I need to stop! I thank each of you ladies for the awesome encouraging messages and they are really helping me! God did an awesome job at giving me all of you! Thank you Lord!

I need to really lean on the Lord more than I am on Blogger. Lately I think the Lord has been trying to show me things and all I am doing is on the internet all day long. I am addicted especially trying to find a job online.

As of my job status I am still working but the doors will close on the 1st of March but the last day of pay is actually the 27th of Feb. I have been sending my resume left and right and have not received one call yet but I have hope! I did a typing test on the fort here and I got 74WPM and this whole time I was putting on my resume that I typed 50WPM. LOL Thank you Lord for giving me the ability to type...

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On another note my heart is sad and just all a basket case. My brother in law left Friday to a 12 month deployment and hearing my sisters voice was just so sad that I can't even explain. It totally reminded me of the day my husband left to Afghanistan, the day I saw a weapon straped to my husbands thigh. It just hurts and Fay if you read this know that the Lord has His arms wrapped around him each second. We will intercede in prayer and pray Psalm 91.

14 "Because he loves me," says the LORD, "I will rescue him;
I will protect him, for he acknowledges my name.
15 He will call upon me, and I will answer him;
I will be with him in trouble,
I will deliver him and honor him.
16 With long life will I satisfy him
and show him my salvation."

My cousin Angel was also sent for a 12 month deployment as well on Friday so it was even harder! He is married with two kids and they live here where I live as well so I am blessed to be able to be there for his family while he is gone. We will be interceding in prayer as well.

So there it is.... My heart is very emotional!

Nehemiah mommy wants you to surround Tio Hector and Cousin Angel and Cousin Jonathan while they are fighting for our freedom! Mommy and Daddy love you Nehemiah and we are so blessed to know that you are in His hands! ((hugs baby))

***on a side note I started a new blog called Healing with one stitch @ a time... if you'd like you can go on over and follow me. This blog will be for hobbies that I like to do. Crocheting has big the one that helps me heal most of the miscarriage. It takes so much off of my mind!***

As of...

2009-01-29T12:24:00.000-08:00

Feb. 27th I will no longer have a J.O.B! I am at my wits ends because I have never gone thru being laid off. I know who is in control and I know I need to leave it in His hands but at the same time im worried as I am human!

Has anyone filed un-employment? I am thinking of looking into it but I don't know about it. I am and have been looking for a job since the summer of last year. I have a few people looking for me too so I am blessed by that. My husband is totally supportive and I am grateful.

Please lift me up in prayer please. I am a little bummed since i had a budget going!

I'm holding on to this verse!
Cast your cares on the LORD and he will sustain you; he will never let the righteous fall.
Psalm 55:22

I will never forget...

2009-01-28T17:00:00.000-08:00

January 28, 2008 will never be forgotten in my heart! This was the day that I called the OB department at the hospital to receive the BEST news ever in my life! These words that I will NEVER forget... "Congrats Mrs. R you are pregnant!" I am sure the nurse on the phone had no idea why I was quiet and crying... I said "Ma'am thank you so much I have been waiting for 4 years for a positive test!" She sounded so excited for me and set me up my 1st OB appt.

My heart is heavy and I am sad. I thought the grief was already on its way out of my heart but it's not. It's even harder when you receive one of these in the mail:

If you aren't able to read what it says here it is: "Congratulations your new baby is finally here!" (**I wish**) I really wish I would have never of asked for these type of things to come in the mail, but unfortunatly they are...

Ugggg what a day...

Well enough of my pity party! I will go a do what helps me heal... Crocheting...

I love you my sweet angel~i~Nehemiah....

~Melanie

It's Official!

2009-01-25T16:41:00.000-08:00

It's official that I finally decided on no more TTC'ing. (I can hear ya'll saying awwwww) No it's not awwww it's Praise God for He is the one that knows when it's our timing and I have to learn that I have to give everything to Him. I am not in control! I have canceled all my GYN appointments and will not take anymore medications!

Here's something I just discovered as I was typing this (Thank you Lord!):

We were living in NY for about 3 1/2 years because my husband is in the Army. I worked for a church that I love and am so blessed by called Parkside Bible Church. That is where I accepted Jesus Christ as my Lord and Savior and saw many things in my life change. When I found out we were going to have to leave NY to move to another state because my husband had to be a Drill Sgt. I was devastated! To make a long story short I came across this little journal book that would be my book for my church family to write their email addresses. You would never believe the scripture that is in front of it with a design! "He has made everything beautiful in its time..." Ecclesiastes 3:11 NIV

When I got this journal book I didn't really get it for the verse on it BUT I know why I got it NOW! Thank you Lord!
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Yes I am about to put it out there... For the past few years of TTC'ing my life hasn't been the greatest. It's not easy, it's alot of stress, and it's(i mean stressing) not good for my marriage. I have learned that I can not have it my way anymore... The let downs I've had over the past few months have been painful ones BUT I've learned that thru Him all things are possible! I know I've said plenty of times WHY?, THIS IS NOT FAIR, WHY HER AND NOT ME, I JUST DON'T UNDERSTAND and I have learned that those words are negative and I want to live positive. Many loved ones have seen me pushing them away little by little but are always there to pick me up with an encouraging message and I thank ya'll for that. It's a time in my life that I have had to find myself in all of my grief, but while at church today I learned that GOD IS BIGGER THAN MY GRIEF! AMEN!!!

I am moving forward as I said before in another post... This year I am pointing towards goals in my life and with Him I can do it! I thank each of you for hoping and praying for a BFP for me. This will be my last post about TTC'ing!

TTC for me will now be called GITG... GIVING IT TO GOD!

Goodnight!

~i~ Melanie

What the heck!

2009-01-22T10:11:00.000-08:00

Ok so forget about the private blog.... It's a pain and it seems that the last update on certain blogs are from the "going private" post.

Sorry for the confusion as I didn't have everyone's email address under the permissions section because I would forget, etc...

Sorry ladies...

Update on Grandma

2009-01-22T09:58:00.000-08:00

Thanks to all of you who left me a comment!! She is one strong 82 yr old. grandma!!!

This update is from my sister:

I pray that all of you are having a good morning. I just got another update and wanted to let you know that we are continuing to pray for Luz Maria Maldonado/Abuela. We are praying for complete healing in her body, specifically her heart and that God gives the Doctors wisdom and knowledge as to what is best. Please continue to pray for her, the strength in all of us as family, and complete recovery after the procedure.

They plan to do a cauterization, stent, etc to her heart this afternoon. She slept well and will undergo this procedure today. Mom is waiting for the doctor to make a final decision.

Keep your prayers coming!!! To God be the Glory!!!

We love your Abuela...

Please pray for my family!

2009-01-21T19:23:00.000-08:00

Hello my awesome prayer warriors!

Thank you Amanda and Maria for posting prayer requests for my grandma, Luz Maria.

My grandma suffered a mild heart attack today and the Dr.'s were worried about a blood clot. The results came back NEGATIVE for a blood clot. (there's that word again but it's a good thing:) She has been transported to a bigger and better hospital and is being taken care of quiet well! Here is a pic of her that my mom just texted me:
Doesn't she look good after having a mild heart attack??? My sister did a call down while I tried to hold back the tears while at work and we all interceded in prayer as soon as my customers left. Thanks to all who are and will be praying for my grandma. Tomorrow is the day where they will figure out what to do as she has been having many episodes of fainting. She is a Diabetic with heart problems and High blood pressure as well and has had about 2 strokes. (Love you Abuela!)

Also if each of you all can keep my sister, Fay, in your prayers and her family (16yr, 8yr, and 3yr old). My brother in law deploys in just **a little while** to the middle east and we are needing lots of prayers as this is my sisters first time experiencing this him gone. He will be gone from 12 to 15 months the most. The date was later in Feb. but they just moved it to just **a little while**. (**security reasons**) May the Lord bring them peace and comfort to all of them and may he have a safe trip there and safe while he is deployed. Praise God that they just moved close to my mom in Texas and we are just 10 hours away!

Also if you would keep my aunt, Sonia, in your prayers. I just found out from my mom that she is feeling depressed and finally went to the dr about this issue. I think the enemy is really using a few of us in the "depressed" department... I am struggling and it seems that my family is too.

Please ladies pray for us. We are enduring alot at this time and may the Lord bring healing into all of our hearts.

God bless each one of you who reads this post! I appreciate every thought and prayer!!!

Negative::Like always!

2009-01-20T12:47:00.000-08:00

Yup that word again... Negative!

I went in this morning for a urine test to see if im PG and nope I am not!

It's okay though I will get over it! I have seen NEGATIVE for many many years now and again today! God will heal my heart as He always does.

Thanks ladies for your prayers!!! They are appreciated :)

BFN! I hate home pregnancy tests!

2009-01-18T11:04:00.000-08:00

Yes I said it... I HATE HOME PREGNANCY TEST and with that I will NOT buy anymore!!!

See with my 1st pregnancy that ended in miscarriage I tested with home pregnancy tests and all of the 10 I tested with were NEGATIVE but I had symptoms of pregnancy, but when I went to the hospital to do a test in a urine cup it was POSITIVE (weird huh?)

As you all know I was on 3 months of Provera (progesterone) and my cycles came every 28-29 days. They were weird cycles that would last for about 9 days of nothing but spotting but I thank the Lord for bringing on my cycle for those 3 months. I was told by Dr. Eid that if I was not pregnant by January that I would have to call and schedule an appt for further testing and to place me on Clomid (I DON'T want to be on those stupid pills!) They stress me OUT and it's not good for us when we have to "dance under the sheets" (as they call it) for like what 7 days... (Yes im venting...)

Ok im off my soap box excuse me...

So I took a test on Friday because I just couldn't stand my heart racing with so much anxiety since I am actually a week late already, so I ran to the PX and bought the digital, expensive ,$14.00, with 2 tests box and boom NEGATIVE.... Just like that... I hate those stupid sticks... They really suck!!! Sorry ladies please bear with me im in one of those moods!!! Maybe I am PMS'ing whoooooooooooo freakin knows.. LOL

So I will call in the morning so that I can do a test in the hospital...The only symptom I have is my face is breaking out which WAS a sign when I was preggo the 1st time.

Lord please help my attitude!

Love ya'll!!! Have a wonderful Sunday... :)

If I am PMS'ing here is a shirt I should be wearing.... LOL

Quiet Time with God

2009-01-15T08:21:00.000-08:00

Ladies... Do I have your attention?? I hope so...

I met a lady in 2004 before I became a Christian and I am telling you that the Lord had picked out this sweet lady in order for me to understand and start being my "husbands help meet." She was a lady in my church in NY that was starting a Bible Study for woman. She named it the Titus 2 Bible Study. I was not sure at first about it as it was described as "3Likewise, teach the older women to be reverent in the way they live, not to be slanderers or addicted to much wine, but to teach what is good. 4Then they can train the younger women to love their husbands and children, 5to be self-controlled and pure, to be busy at home, to be kind, and to be subject to their husbands, so that no one will malign the word of God." Titus 2:3-5

In Nov. of 2004 I accepted my Lord & Savior and from there I decided to join this Bible Study. I remember how my life was at that time, how my marriage was on the rocks, but I was finally understanding that God was the center of our marriage and that thru Him all things are possible.

My heart was hard once I started this Bible study as I my marriage was hurting from many issues. One thing that I learned alot from Margie was how to come to the Lord and have your Quiet Time with Him!

I want to share the way she taught me and others:

Day 1 - Psalms (read a chapter from Psalms)

Day 2 - Confession (confess 3 things or more to Him)

Day 3 - Old Testament (read a chapter from the O.T.)

Day 4 - Thanksgiving (thank Him for any praises, etc.)

Day 5 - New Testament (read a chapter from the N.T.)

Day 6 - Requests (prayer requests for yourself or others)

Day 7 - Proverbs (read a chapter from Proverbs)

Day 8 - Listen (wait patiently and listen for Him)

She also writes:

*Keep it like an appointment, because it is!

*Guard it as a date with your lover, because it is!

*Keep Bible, pen, notebook, coffee/tea cup, reading glasses & shawl together in your "closet."

*Journal - date, section, a few key thoughts at least to help you focus and remember.

*Jot down any distracting thoughts in margin of journal.

I hope that this helps each one of you in your walk with the Lord. When I accepted Him into my heart I didn't know if I was praying right... I know there is no such thing as how to pray but this gave me light and till this day I can say that I am learning so much!

God bless all of you...

~i~ Melanie

Before His Throne Prayer Blog

2009-01-13T11:24:00.001-08:00

Hi ladies,

If you haven't yet seen the prayer blog that Aspiemom started up go to Before His Throne. Amanda and I are contributors to this blog as well so if you have any prayer request or praise reports please let either of us know. Our emails are on the blog so that you can email us the requests.

If you would like to place the blog button on your page please do so (the HTML code is there somewhere).

Thanks ladies for your prayers in advance!

Our King!

2009-01-12T13:33:00.000-08:00

Here is our American Pitbull Terrier, King, that just turned 7 months (55 lbs)!

My husband has always wanted a Pit and well last July we decided on looking for one. Of course we have heard horror stories about pit bulls but in my experience with all pit bulls I've been around they seem to be good. I have been a person that has never been scared around any type of dogs especially this breed. He is a very caring pup and even though he is hyper he is our baby!
This is a pic that I took with my new cell phone (LG LOTUS! awesome cell) in our car coming back from Texas. He just wanted mommy to sit in the back seat with him! He is a B-A-B-Y!

I've been tagged!

2009-01-11T19:28:00.000-08:00

I've been tagged by Amanda... I tell ya she keeps me on my toes, but I LOVE it!!!
(smile :) Amanda)

Here are the rules:

1) Link to the person who tagged you.
2) Post the rules on your blog (copy and paste 1-6).
3) Write 6 random things about yourself.
4) Tag 6 people at the end of your post and link to them.
5) Let each person know they have been tagged and leave a comment on their blog.
6) Let the tagger know when your entry is up.

So here goes the 6 random things about me:

1. I have a long 2nd toe! LOL

2. I love to crochet different things. It has been a healing instrument for me!

3. I always have to talk to my mother before I go to sleep! If we don't get a chance she or I ends up texting messaging saying "goodnight!"

4. I went to the Dominican Republic on a missions trip with my church in NY. (will post about the mission in a few more posts.)

5. I would like to be a Special Education aide or teacher one day! (something the Lord has been laying in my heart)

6. I read the New Living Translation Bible!

Ok now to tag 6 of you....

Teresa
Rene
Mandy
Michelle
Abigail
April

Moving Forward

2009-01-10T20:34:00.000-08:00

I just added a new song onto my blog called "Moving Forward" by Mission 242 (I think).

This song has spoken to me lately... Alot of Praise & Worship songs have spoken to me lately and I love that feeling! The title of this song explains it all... I hope it speaks to you as well....

I am Moving Forward in 2009....

What can I post about today??

2009-01-09T20:15:00.000-08:00

Well well well... It's 10 p.m. my time and I'm bored but I want to post something cause I'm bored! LOL (Ok im really tired so im giggly... ;)

Soooo something I would love for ya'll to be in prayer about for me is...... Now that my blog is private I can write whatever is on my heart! Tomorrow AF (cycle) should show her face if not Sunday if not then during the week who knows since I'm one that is IRREGULAR! As most of you know I was on Provera (progesterone pills) so that I could get a cycle every month and thank God it helped me get my cycle every 28 days for 3 months! I remember my GYN telling me that I could possibly get pregnant while being on those pills and it wouldn't harm the baby. She placed me on them for 3 months like I said and then she wanted to see me in January (this month) to then place me on Clomid. Well I haven't called the office as of yet just cause I don't know if im pregnant..... I am HOPING FOR A BFP (big fat positive).... Will you join me in prayer please?!??!

Another prayer I would ask for is as I start this new year out with a budget for the 1st time EVER that the Lord will give me peace, guide me, and strengthen me as I pay off my debt that I have had for years. This debt has been with me since before I met my husband (10 years). Some of you may know that I am trying to find a new job and well I think they are checking my credit and so that is probably why I'm not getting a job. I really wish they wouldn't check my credit but I know they have a policy they have to go by and well it's my fault.

Well I'm feeling a little sleepy now so I guess I will go snuggle with hubby...

Goodnight ladies...

God bless all of you and thank you in advance for your prayers! ~Melanie

Husband Tag

2009-01-08T13:15:00.000-08:00

I've been tagged by Amanda!

This tag is a "husband tag" so here I go...

5 Things Ralph Loves:

1. Lord & Savior
2. Me
3. His 2 boys
4. New York Yankees
5. The remote control (errrr)

5 Things on Ralph's "To Do" List:

1. watch football

2. watch the NY Yankees

3. sleep
4. watch tv (I know its the same as 1&2 but thats all he does!)
5. yell at drill sgts & privates (LOL seriously)

5 Foods Ralph Enjoys:

1. Puerto Rican food
2. Shrimp
3. Pizza
4. NY Cheesecake
5. Steak from Outback

5 Things You May Not Know About Ralph:

1. He is 8 years older than me
2. He has 2 boys, 16 & 11 yr old
3. He is from the Bronx
4. Has been in the Army for 16 years

5. He loves his pitbull pup, King

5 Quirky Things About Ralph:

1. He loves all type of music (he always says he was born in the wrong era)

2. He won't go to bed until im in bed

3. He is very picky

4. He takes the remote EVERYWHERE!

5. He sings crazy songs that he makes up (Amanda knows what im talking about she heard him!) LOL

This was really fun... Thanks for sharing Amanda!

PROXIMITY award from Rene!

2009-01-08T11:47:00.000-08:00

This is one meaningful award! Thanks again Rene!!!

I got another bloggy award and well since I LOVE butterflies I'm all over this award!

Thanks to Rene for rewarding me this blog award!!!

The award is for PROXIMITY and it's explained this way:

"This blog invests and believes in PROXIMITY - nearness in space, time and relationships! These blogs are exceedingly charming. These kind bloggers aim to find and be friends. They are not interested in prizes or self-aggrandizement. Our hope is that when the ribbons of these prizes are cut, even more friendships are propagated. Please give more attention to these writers! Deliver this award to eight bloggers who must choose eight more and include this cleverly-written text into the body of their award."

Since this blog is very meaningful and all of you wonderful ladies have always been there for me there is NO way I can pick just 8, so with that said I am breaking the rules to this YES but its ok... So please who ever reads this its for you too!!!

Love all of you and may the year 2009 bring all of you many blessings....

~Melanie

Yes, I've been MIA...

2009-01-06T19:09:00.000-08:00

Hello to all my blog readers...

Yes I know I know I've been MIA and I am soooo sorry for not posting since before Christmas. I have been busy and was vacationing in Texas for 2 weeks! I had a fantastic time with family and friends and celebrated His birth and the New Years with such heart-warming family. Christmas Eve and New Years Eve was a little hard for me but the Lord gave me strength and I am MOVING FORWARD in 2009!

I made lots of New Years resolutions and am trying to stick by them daily! My #1 resolution that I will share is to have a "closer relationship with my Lord & Savior and to have a thirst for Him!"

I thought I would privatize my blog but I am going to wait a few more days till I get things together and update my blog.

Well I am a little lost for words right now since I am listening to praise and worship songs and I need to get on my knees and go to the Lord!

~Melanie

Holiday Recipe Exchange!

2008-12-18T12:51:00.001-08:00

Ok so Michelle @ Circle of Life started a HOLIDAY EXCHANGE THURSDAY and since she demanded me to do this (just joking!) I would like to share a cookie recipe that us Puerto Ricans make!!! They are yummy....

Mantecaditos

Makes about 40

2 1/4 cups all-purpose flour
1/4 teaspoon freshly ground nutmeg
3/4 cup butter
1/4 cup vegetable shortening
1 1/2 teaspoons almond extract
1/2 teaspoon vanilla extract
1/2 cup sugar
5 maraschino cherries, cut into eighths

Place oven rack in middle position of the oven. Preheat oven to 350 F. Combine flour and nutmeg; set aside. In a large bowl, beat butter, shortening and extracts with an electric mixer until smooth. Gradually add sugar to butter mixture and cream until mixture is light and fluffy. Blend in flour mixture. Dough should be slightly moist. If dough looks dry, sprinkle with water and work into dough. If dough is sticky, sprinkle with additional flour. Spoon dough by teaspoons and form into balls. Place on an ungreased baking sheet. Gently press each ball with palm of hand to form cookie. Garnish with a cherry piece placed in the center of each cookie. Bake 20 minutes or until golden. Remove to a wire rack to cool.

My grandma used to make these all the time and I remember sitting on the kitchen counter eating the dough out of the bowl!! LOL I know my grandma can't see my blog because she doesn't even know how to get onto a computer but I love you abuela....

You can decorate these two different ways: With sprinkles or dent the middle of the cookie with your thumb and place a cherry in it!

Happy Birthday Maria!!!

2008-12-18T09:07:00.000-08:00

Today is Maria's birthday!!!

1..2..3.. Happy Birthday to you... Happy Birthday to you... Happy Birthday dear Mariaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa Happy Birthday to you... And many moreeeeeeeeee...

In Espanol... Feliz Cumpleanos Feliz... Feliz Cumpleanos Feliz... Feliz Cumpleanos a Mariaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa (with Puerto Rican accent)LOL

God bless you girl today and always... May He bring you many blessings!

(Maria click on the pic so that you can read the message I wrote OH and if you don't mind I stole this pic from your myspace! LOL)

Don't forget to wish this amazing woman a Happy Birthday or a Feliz Cumpleanos!!!

Prayer for wanting & being...

2008-12-17T13:25:00.000-08:00

**Ok this awesome prayer came from my sister that is forever telling me "Speak Life into your womb!" To my sister that has always been there for me even when I call and complain... I love you sister!**

Father, in Jesus Name, I thank You that because I keep your commandments and do those things that are pleasing to You, I know whatever I ask I receive of You; therefore, Father, according to Your Word, I believe that You make me a joyful mother of children.

I thank You Father that my children are like olive plants around the table. I thank You Father that the fruit of my womb is Your reward and I believe I receive rewards from You.

Father, in Jesus Name, I thank You that I will carry my baby full-term. Because I am a tither, the devourer is rebuked for me, and my fruit shall not be brought forth before the time of life. I thank You Father that You make my body strong and You bless the child within me. Your Word says there shall nothing cast their young young, neither be barren in the land.

Father, because we fear and reverence You as Lord, I thank You in the name of Jesus that we are blessed with a family, committed to You and Your Word. I thank You Father for our unborn child; we receive the child as a gift from You. I believe my child is being created in Your image and likeness; therefore, I believe I receive a normal, healthy child with all body parts functioning as you designed them to function.

Father, I thank You that because I am skillfully and wonderfully made in Your image and likeness, I will have a safe, easy pregnancy and delivery. Pregnancy is Your will for my life; therefore I accept Your plan for blessing my womb. I believe the Holy Spirit is with me in labor and delivery; therefore, I thank You for protecting me and my child. I thank You Father that the Holy Spirit oils my womb and the baby comes forth safely and speedily during delivery.

I thank You Father that our child is not brought forth for sudden terror or calamity, but a blessing from You Father.

Because we have chosen to walk in Your ways, I thank You Father that all nations rise and call us blessed.

Amen!!

This goes to all the ladies in my life that are trying for a baby or are pregnant and feeling the fear and need that ONE prayer! This is free so take it and print it and place it in your Bible and PRAY IT!!!! Love all of you.... Ya'll have a special place in my <3!

Wordless Wednesday

2008-12-17T10:45:00.000-08:00

What more can I ask for....

During this Christmas season I ask that each of you would lift those up who have lost a child due to miscarriage, stillborn, or after being born. It's really been difficult knowing that I don't have our precious baby in our arms but in our hearts and with this picture I can be calm knowing whos arms he is in~Jesus!

Need help with header??

2008-12-14T17:23:00.000-08:00

Ok so I found out how to make the double border around your header larger so that it can fit your custom header!!!

This is what you do for those of you who use ScrapBlog or other programs:

1. Go to Layout
2. Edit HTML
3. Scroll to where you see this (its not in red I just made it that way so you know what im talking about)

/* Header ----------------------------------------------- */
#header-wrapper { width:672px;
margin:0 auto 10px;
border:1px solid $bordercolor;

**See where it says width:672px; well it is usually 6-- something (cant remember) anyway I just was playing with the #'s and WAHLA! 672 will make your custom header fit in that box! If it doesn't you just go up or down with that #**

Hope this helps!

I made a "play around" blog and thats what I've been doing! I have learned alot of "secrets" from The Cutest Blog on The Block! Check out my other blog...

http://melanie-playaroundblog.blogspot.com/

Joy & Peace

2008-12-13T10:34:00.001-08:00

As I sit here and think of so many of us hurting for that one little miracle I feel the Lord has so much to do in our lives. To tell you all the truth the Lord has given me so much peace and joy in the midst of the pain I was feeling. For some reason I'm coping and I am so glad to be able to say it FINALLY! I never thought I would crawl OUT of that hole I felt I was in. Yes my heart yearns for a little one leaping in my womb and I have HOPE that it will all plan out for His good. I am so blessed to say that I have a little angel in Heaven and I know he is forever surrounding me. There is a little poem I read the other day from a friend and it was about a little boy that just wanted to put his hands thru his mommys hair and she let him. As I sit around at work or at home I just dream of Nehemiah playing with my hair.

This peace and joy im feeling is totally from the Lord. All I can say is that what I have been doing lately is reading His Word and doing my daily devotions. I think that as I spend more time with the Lord on a daily basis I am able to know that I have a God in my life that will give me what I ask for and thats peace and joy. I want to be happy for others that are pregnant but yet thats something that the Lord is still helping me with. I just got an email that a friend of mine is pregnant with her 2nd. How amazingly happy she is but yet what a bitterness in my heart I feel and its not fair for me to feel this way. This is one thing that I need to work with and with time He will show me how.

To anyone that reads this and feels as if a certain situation is just killing you remember that you aren't alone in it. We have the Lord to lean on even when it feels as if He isn't there but rest assured He is! Let's crawl out of the hole and lean on Him and each other in all of this. Remember the one who brings you down... It's not the Lord... He wants to bring you UP and OUT!

Have a great weekend!

Lord, we know how faithful you are to us. You also know our heart, our desires, and our pain. I pray for all of my friends Lord that you will give them an everlasting Joy in their heart and Peace. Lord as Jesus' birthday is just a few days away I pray that we will be able to rejoice especially knowing that we have little angels with you this Christmas season. I pray that this season will be a season of great JOY! I pray for my friends that may be struggling with anything Lord that you will give them the JOY and PEACE that I am feeling. Lord that as we crawl out of this hole that Your hand will guide each one of us OUT! We bind the enemy Lord and we put him behind us. You are so amazing Lord and I thank you NOW for whats to come. In Jesus Christ name, Amen!

Wondering??

2008-12-11T07:15:00.000-08:00

Ok so some of you are wondering about the awesome opportunity I have been talking about lately that I didn't get! I think I've been messaging a few of you about a "J.O.B" and I take it I had never told ya'll! LOL too hilarious...

Ok so there was this job opportunity that I thought would be for me which was a Administrative position at a Christian University. The position was awesome pay and get this "Free Tuition!" I don't have a degree YET and well I thought this would be the time to finish it off and well the job didn't come thru but IT'S OK! Someone else needed it more than I did. Maybe someone that hasn't even went to college got that job or maybe someone that didn't have a job yet got it... I am looking at it with a warm heart and not a bitter one!

I am blessed where I am working at now but would like something challenging and where I can move up in the positions they offer! God knows the plans He has for me and I will sit back and watch Him reveal to me what He has in store for me!

God bless all of you and thanks for asking and caring!

The letter "M"

2008-12-10T14:50:00.000-08:00

I'm playing along with Allisyn's letter meme. She assigned me the letter "M" and now I have to come up with 10 things I am thankful for that start with M. So here is a list of a few of the things that I am thankful for:

1. My mother (I am thankful for my beautiful mother! God blessed me with such an awesome mom!)

2. Munchichi's (I am thankful for this toy because when I was little I had one or two and it reminds me of my childhood times!) Member sister???

3. Music (I am thankful for Christian music that is... and especially right now with the Christmas season I love Christmas music as I praise our Savior!)

4. McDonald's (I am thankful for McD's... LOL yes I love McD's and I can't help it... I know its bad and lots of grease but... I love it!)

5. Maurice's (I am thankful for this clothing store! Mind you where I live we don't have a mall and well whats a girl with NO MALL! Oh we have a Walmart and this store right next door!)

6. Mail (I am thankful for mail because I love getting mail from family and friends! Being a military wife its hard being so far from everyone so one little card does fill my heart with joy!)

7. Military Wife (I am thankful for being a military wife! I love my soldier so much and without him I wouldn't be this strong!)

8. M.E.N.D. (Mommies Enduring Neonatal Death) is a Christian, non-profit organization that reaches out to families who have suffered the loss of a baby through miscarriage, stillbirth, or early infant death.

9. Mother/Step-Mother (I am thankful for being a mother to a precious little angel in Heaven and also a step mother to two wonderful boys.)

10. Miracles (I am thankful for miracles that only God can perform! Hoping for a BFP this Christmas!)

These are 10 things I am thankful for! Thank you Allisyn for giving me the opportunity to think of M's of what im thankful for! LOL

If you would like to play along comment me and I will give you a letter.

Wordless Wednesday! LOL

2008-12-10T10:36:00.001-08:00

I guess this is how im feeling lately.. LOL

Wordless Wednesday

2008-12-03T13:01:00.000-08:00

This is my 1st Wordless Wednesday post!! I take it you don't really write a actual post but a picture of something that inspires you so to say... So here is my pic! Isn't it adorable!!!

Satisfied!

2008-12-03T10:46:00.000-08:00

Ok I think im actually satisfied with how my blog looks. I will not change it UNLESS I learn how to make my own (someday!)

I want to thank everyone for your prayers for my "career situation." My heart's desire is to go to college and get a degree in Special Education one day :) I really think the Lord is placing special little children that have disabilities in my heart. I hear that alot of schools are in NEED of Special Education teachers/aides so I will pray whole-heartedly and see what plans He has for me!

Oh and for everyone wondering about my "song" that I am writing its for my angel in Heaven! The title is "Just Fly Away" and well I am not an actual singer but I used to sing at my old churches Praise & Worship Team and started to learn how to play an acoustic guitar as well. So one day I will put the words and the acoustic guitar together and make a song and put it on a video and sing it to my baby in heavens ears...

Under Construction AGAIN!!

2008-12-02T10:43:00.001-08:00

Ok so for all of you who are my followers I have a HUGE problem when it comes to my blog. I am about to download a free trial of photo editing, etc... so that I can learn to make my OWN templates!!! Does anyone know of any programs?? I would love to learn!! So the layout I have now is just for today and tomorrow maybe!!!

Will I ever be happy with ONE template?? NOPE...

December 1st~Devotional

2008-12-01T19:46:00.000-08:00

So I am starting my days of reading a devotional, diving into the Word, and praying! It's a challenge that Hilary from A Look Into Our Lives is doing and so I am tagging along! Here is the meaning for the December Challenge:

D - Devotions
E - Everyday
C - Creates
E - Eternal
M - Meaning
B - By
E - Establishing a
R - Relationship (with Jesus Christ!)

I am going to be posting a few devotionals a week. The devotional book that I am reading is the Our Daily Bread.

Today's devotion was "Waiting for Joy."

~~When I read devotions sometimes they speak to me and sometimes I don't understand some. But when I started to read this one I was like "Praise You Lord!" God knows our daily circumstances. He knows im waiting for joy just like the title says. As I kept reading the scripture was Psalm 30:5 "Weeping may endure for a night, but joy comes in the morning." I find myself crying at night because that is when my body just winds down from the crazy day that I usually have. I cry because I miss the baby in my womb that was growing fine for 8 weeks and then at my 12th week appointment our baby has passed away in my womb. It was the most disappointing thing ever to endure. I don't wish that on anyone. I remember the first appointment I was able to see his little heart just beating away and how he was justa' wiggling around. Till this day I wish my hubby had been there to see but being in the Army his job is really tough and all he remembers is the day that I called him to tell him the bad news. So yes my nights are hard but I can say that when I wake up in the morning I am refreshed by our Heavenly Father! I know I can get up feeling good knowing that I will go to Him and go to His Word. I try to at least but sometimes I just don't feel up to it and I can tell you that when I don't go to Him daily my day drags BIG time so im grateful to Hilary for bringing this December Challenge! (hubby is calling me to bed...) so I will close it here... From today's devotion I learned that even though I may weep He will give me JOY! The last part of this devotion it says: "We can endure this life's trials because of the next life's joys!" Amen and Amen!

Goodnight...

Our Thanksgiving

2008-12-01T08:28:00.000-08:00

We had a very quiet Thanksgiving this year which was crazy for me because I miss my family. Being a military wife is not easy but I knew what I was getting into when I married my love. So since we have two dogs our plans were to go to Texas where my family is at and my husbands two boys but the plans got canceled because of a big 60 lb dog that we have that probably wouldn't behave and it was too late to get him to a doggie daycare so we camped out here in Missouri! It was really quiet but I made "pernil (pork)" and my cousin and his wife made the turkey. We are Puerto Rican so pork is the main meat we eat on pretty much EVERY occasion! It was my 1st time making it and I also made a Pumpkin Cake. It was D.E.L.I.C.I.O.U.S!!!

So my Thanksgiving was quiet! I woke up and gave thanks to my Heavenly Father and I've also came up with a song that has just flowed out of my mouth (To be continued on a later post!)

Must See!!!

2008-11-26T14:00:00.000-08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qUv_FAL2jik

Ok so I don't know how to place a video from You Tube on here so here is a video that is so HILARIOUS!!!

IT'S A MUST SEE!!!!

2008-11-25T19:20:00.000-08:00

I want to thank Him for many things that He has done for me even though its hard because of what has happened to me this year but I am still thankful!

These are the things im thankful for:

::Im thankful for my salvation

::Im thankful for our marriage of 6 yrs and the relationship my husband and I have

::Im thankful for my family and also my husband's family

::Im thankful for the Lord forming a baby in my womb even though he/she lived for only a few weeks

::Im thankful our angel in Heaven~Nehemiah~

::Im thankful for the roof the Lord has over us

::Im thankful for my job and my husbands job

::Im thankful for my friends (including all my blogger friends!!!)

::Im thankful for His Word

::Im thankful for the church family that I have met @ Parkside Bible Church (MISS YA'LL LIKE CRAZY!) and also Grace Covenant Church

::Im thankful that He has brought many ladies in my path that have gone thru a miscarriage/stillborn

::Im thankful to my mother, my aunt Evelyn, and my grandma who drove thru the midnight to be with me the day I miscarried Nehemiah

::Im thankful for the lady at the ER who took good care of me after the miscarriage (she did beyond what I expected!)

::Im thankful for my cycles coming monthly with the pills my Dr. prescribed me

::Im thankful for whats to come

::Im thankful for what has happened to me in this past year even though its been SO hard which has helped me with my relationship with the Lord!

For all of this and many other blessings I AM THANKFUL!

Tomorrow will be a very touching day for me as I will love to have Nehemiah in my arms but I know his sweet spirit will surround me!

With this I will leave you with this quote from In Touch Ministries Devotional that I read today:

"Count His blessings as your own, and let God know how appreciative you are."

God Will You Write My Motherhood Story!?

2008-11-21T20:39:00.000-08:00

Yesterday on my way back from picking up my dogs from the doggie beautyshop I was listening to my Christian radio station. I love to hear Dr. James Dobson from Focus on the Family. Lysa Terkeurst, President of the Proverbs 31 Ministries was speaking yesterday on Dr. Dobson about "Walking in Faith." As she was speaking thru it something caught my attention which was "God Will You Write My Motherhood Story!?" I said it in my head like 5 times till it really set in... I have been controlling my TTC'ing and it's all in His hands because HE HAS WRITTEN MY MOTHERHOOD STORY!!!

Click here to hear the radio clip Blessings of Walking in Faith

If you have never been to Proverbs 31 Ministries I would highly recommend it!!!

Also Lysa Terkeurst has a blog and all the others on Proverbs 31...

I really hope this radio clip speaks to all of you...

Beautiful Collage!

2008-11-20T17:49:00.001-08:00

I am in awe.... All I can say is thank you Michelle and even though I can't just run up and give you a HUGE hug know that I am such in awe knowing that the Lord has blessed me with such great Sisters in Christ! I mean if my day has been a little down in the dumps which usually is all of you has so many encouraging words to say to me and for that I want to Praise Him! Michelle made this for me in memory of Nehemiah.

Nehemiah's name in the sand in Australia...

2008-11-20T14:04:00.000-08:00

Wow ladies Nehemiah's name was written in the sand in Australia by this awesome family "To Write Their Names in the Sand"

Thank you so much Carly & Sam!!!

Ladies look at the beautiful sunset that the Lord has blessed us with!!! I have been in awe of the sunset I am able to see in my backyard and well He is just showing me how awesome He is!!!

I have been awarded 2 awards!!!

2008-11-20T09:28:00.000-08:00

THANKS TO MICHELLE from Circle of Life!!!!

She has awarded me with two awards!! Wow this week has been my week of awards.. I feel so blessed... Seriously I never thought that I would have anybody check out my blog!

Check it out! (woot woot!)

Ok and I am to award these 2 awards to 5 people.... So here we go:

By the way everyone (shout out!) my beautiful sister, Fay just started her blog (Woot Woot!) so please stop by and show her some Sister in Christ LOVE! Love ya sista!

1. Fay @ Attempting to do God's Will

2. Maria @ With Hope

3. Amanda @ The Hoyt Family

4. Brookebug @ Hopes, Dreams, and the in between

5. Amy @ Fun With the Fichtner's

Alright ladies all you have to do is copy and save the 2 blog awards and pick 5 people!!! Don't forget to place your awards on your side of your column!!!

Have fun...

God bless... Melanie

Vwalaaaaaa...

2008-11-19T19:10:00.000-08:00

Ok I think I have like a problem with keeping things the same for a long period of time... Is there a name for that ladies??? Like my blog always has to be a different background, I get bored with my office desk looking the same like every week so I change something around, our bedroom gets changed like every 3 months because I get bored... Hmmmm I think its called "being bored maybe? or ADD?"

Ok so I don't know what magic I did but I got the background from Lena's blog to work! Ladies she's got beautiful layouts and all you have to do is download Firefox (which by the way I love it better than the regular Internet Explorer) then just click download and "Vwalaaaaaaaaaaaaa." It took me awhile just cause I wasn't "patient" enough I think!

Ok now I need to share my blog awards that Michelle from Circle of Life has awarded me... You are awesome Michelle... God bless you!!! More post to come today I promise!

Under Construction!

2008-11-19T07:08:00.000-08:00

Ok so I want a really cool blog template from this amazing talented person Lena but I can't seem to figure it all out just yet! So I am waiting patiently for an email back from her so that she can tell me why its telling me an error! Errrr I HATE errors!

Me got a blog award!!

2008-11-18T09:58:00.000-08:00

WOW I am so thankful to Teresa!!! Thanks girl you are truly an awesome friend!! You crack me up!

Answer the following questions with single word responses. Then pass on the award to 7 other bloggers:

1. Where is your cell phone? PURSE
2. Where is your significant other? WORK
3. Your hair color? BROWN
4. Your mother? HOUSE
5. Your father? HEAVEN
6. Your favorite thing? CROCHETING
7. Your dream last night? NONE
8. Your dream/goal? DEGREE
9. The room you’re in? OFFICE
10. Your hobby? CRAFTS
11. Your fear? losing another child
12. Where do you want to be in six years? TEXAS
13. Where were you last night? HOME
14. What you’re not? MEAN
15. One of your wish list items? PREGNANCY
16. Where you grew up? TEXAS
17. The last thing you did? FAX
18. What are you wearing? CLOTHES
19. Your T.V.? HOME
20. Your pet? STINKY
21. Your computer? HERE
22. Your mood? ANNOYED
23. Missing someone? YES
24. Your car? PATHFINDER
25. Something you’re not wearing? MAKEUP
26. Favorite store? HOBBY LOBBY
27. Your Summer? SAD
28. Love someone? YES
29. Your favorite color? ORANGE
30. When is the last time you laughed? TODAY
31. Last time you cried? YESTERDAY

These are too much fun!!! I can answer like 100 of these a day... Again thanks to Teresa for being so kind and awarding me an award! I got to say I have always seen this specific award and was wondering when I started blogging if I would EVER get one and well I DID!!! Yahoooooooooooooooooooo...

Ok so now to the 7 blogger friends that I am to award this award too are..... (drumroll.....)

1. Amanda - This girl has been there since both of our angels grew wings and we were able to meet thru Cafemom! Thanks girl for always being there for me! Love ya!

2. Maria - Another that has been there since both of our angels grew wings together! I love her TWANGY Georgia accent!! LOL Love ya girlie...

3. Mandy - For always being kind and supportive and oh don't let me forget the advice on crocheting!!! Love ya girl!

4. Jen - Another friend who is always encouraging to me... Go girl on your new job!!! Love ya!

5. Ne - She has been an inspiring Sister in Christ! Just the words she writes on her post just speak right to me and I thank the Lord!

6. Misty - She is the sweetest and a beautiful lady. Thanks for being my friend!

7. Allisyn - She is a new blogger friend of mine and she is the sweetest! She found me on here and her son and daughter-n-law are in the same situation as many of us are on trying for a child that we long for... Thanks for being there...

WOW ladies I love ya'll so much!!! It's amazing how we can just message each others blogs but feel the love that Christ has given us! Sometimes I wish those around me physically would be this way! God bless each of you... I am sorry if I didn't include you in this but 7 is just too little of a # but thats the way this goes... I love all of you!!!

**for those of you who haven't had to do this: copy the questions, copy & paste them in a new post, copy and save the pic of the award onto your computer and then post it in your new post then pick 7 people the way I did (if you have ?'s let me know)**

Bummer, Ouch, Ewwww

2008-11-17T07:48:00.000-08:00

::Ok ladies I know I haven't been posting because I have just been speechless... All weekend I was a little anxious because I was supposed to have started my cycle around Fridayish... Well that evil little witch said hello to me yesterday, but with this medication(Provera) the dr has me on so that I can have a cycle every month is really odd. My cycles do not come as normal as what I get on my own even though my body has cycles like whenever it feels like coming pretty much! So anyway thats what BUMMER stands for...

::This morning hubby fed our puppy and had to leave so he yelled my name from downstairs so that I can wake up to go put the dog back in the kennel after he finished eating. Well I get up like all crazy and as im walking down the stairs I fell right on my butt... Can you say OUCH!!!

::When I get to work this morning I stood at the door way to the office to see my coworker standing in the middle of the office with a broom... LOL I was like there is either a crazy Missouri looking spider/bug or a racoon (they've been in our office before) or a rat/mice... Well it was a baby mice. I was scared out of my who knows what.. Well she laid sticky traps and he is BYE BYE... That's what Ewww stands for...

Alright ladies I have to work now... TTYL!

Thankful for this Season!

2008-11-11T08:41:00.000-08:00

Not only am I thankful for this beautiful season that I love so much "Thanksgiving." I am thankful for the "season" the Lord has me in right now! Just to let you in on something: On Sunday our pastor was talking about "Speaking Grace to Thanksgiving" as I sat there and listened to him preaching I felt that the Lord was showing me to be thankful for the season im in even with the way im feeling. He explained that a "season" is defined as a period of time, that our lives are full of seasons just like the 4 seasons. So this is what im up to lately "thanking Him thru my season."

1 Thessalonians 5:18 says "Be joyful always; pray continually; give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus."

Isn't that an amazing verse! I've been battling lately with my grieving process but I have to BE JOYFUL ALWAYS, PRAY, and GIVE THANKS, for it is HIS WILL!!!!

I will Face My Giants with the Lord!

2008-11-07T05:57:00.000-08:00

Last night as I showered, for some reason that is where I feel the power to pray and praise and worship Him in song. As I began to think of evert Giant I am Facing I know that I am facing them with the Lord by my side. How can I NOT praise Him for that! As I read about infertility, miscarriages, stillborns, etc... I just think that all of those are GIANTS that WE FACE in our daily lives. I felt like the Lord was telling me yesterday that the word INFERTILITY was the center of my attention instead of Him or that my WANTING to be pregnant and HAVE a baby was the center of my attention within this year. (wow im really amazed) I think what He is trying to tell me is that I need to have HIM in the CENTER of EVERYTHING in my life and with Him in the center he will be able to place the pieces of my puzzle that my heart so desires!

I am reading a book called God Will Make A Way and in it a few things I highlighted im sure will touch your heart the way it did to me. Here are a few:

::Yet we are people of faith, having learned in our own journey that, when your back is up against the wall and you pray and seek his help, God will make a way through the trial. (I kinda put it in my own words)

::Everyone of us has times when we lose, and we hurt, and we find ourselves asking, "Where is God in all this?" Often, it's not easy to see where God is when the road gets hard.

Those are just a few highlighted in my book... The authors talk alot about the book of Job which I love by the way!

Ladies not just for me but for all of you struggling in your own way WE HAVE TO FACE OUR GIANTS but know that the LORD is always by our side EVEN WHEN IT'S NOT EASY TO SEE WHERE HE IS, that is where our FAITH and TRUST comes in!

Thank you Lord for allowing me to have this in my heart. Lord there are so many of us hurting when it comes to our Christian walk, our marriages, infertility, stillborn, miscarriages, addiction problems, infedility, and Lord so many other things that are hurting others today. I pray that we will all feel your peace and comfort as we sit and wait patiently since You have already planned out our lives ahead of us. We thank you for whats to come and may we all give you the Glory and Honor. In Jesus name I pray, Amen!

Ladies please check this video when you have time and please do it when you are alone as it makes me cry... It's the video from the movie Facing the Giants called "Completely" http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gBfPqcJoPqc

All is well...

2008-11-05T18:33:00.000-08:00

So I went ahead and deleted the post from last night as I was just feeling so hurt. I do thank all of you for your kind, positive, and encouraging messages and for keeping me in your prayers as well. Today I was able to speak to my friend Mayra that lives in Italy and WOW it was like things she was telling me was reminding me of the movie "Facing the Giants" as I relayed all the problems to her that I was going thru. My husband has been really stressed at work and today he had a stress test done and they say he is really stressed and thats why he hasn't been feeling good. He tries to not tell me anything that goes on at his job but I know just by the way he acts at times that something is going wrong. As I was telling my friend Mayra everything I said "you know what everything that is going on in my life and my husbands life is the same EXACT thing like the movie Facing the Giants!" She mentioned she hadn't watched it yet so I kinda gave her a scenario of how her husband was ALWAYS angry because of the football team and how some parents and coworkers weren't being fair to him and thats like the same thing that is happening to him and then with me on the other hand its the struggle of trying to get pregnant/going thru this grieving process and the same EXACT thing happens with his wife on the movie!!! I LOVE THIS MOVIE!!! If you haven't watched it you have too...

I have came to realize that I have to be in PRAYER than speaking negative... I will speak LIFE and BELIEVE that the Lord will RENEW my heart!

I got my hair did...

2008-11-04T08:39:00.000-08:00

So I did it! I have never in my life cut my hair this short! My mother is a hairstylist and she has never wanted to cut my hair this short.

So here goes it...

This is me hard at work!

Pampered Chef Catalog Show!

2008-11-02T18:24:00.000-08:00

Hello ladies...

My sister, Fay, is a Pampered Chef Consultant and since I am helping her with her first catalog show I would like to see if any of you ladies would like any products.

The guest special for November is 20% off of Stoneware.

Here are the Step-by-step instructions:
1. Go to my website: http://www.pamperedchef.biz/faycortes
2. Then go to Order Products - bottom left picture
3. Enter in: Melanie and then her last name in the second box: Rodriguez
4. And then BEGIN SHOPPING!!

If you have any questions you can email me @ butterfly082402@yahoo.com OR my sister @ cortesfay@yahoo.com.

If you would also like to do a catalog show online you can do that as well!!! Just email either her or I.

Thanks in advance... I have a Word Document of gift basket ideas so if you'd like to see it please send me your email address.

God bless!

I was given an Angel Mommy Blog Award!!

2008-10-31T10:49:00.000-07:00

I want to thank Amanda for awarding me this beautiful Angel Mommy Award. She was awarded by one of her blog friends and she passed the award to me as well since we have lost little ones. I also want to thank Nikki for creating this beautiful award!

Amanda and I met from Cafemom and we both lost our babies in March. She is from Texas where I am from as well and one day we are hoping we may be able to meet in person. She is a huge blessing to me and to others. She always has an encouraging word for me and prays for me as well.

Thank you Amanda, you will forever have a place in my heart.

I would like to pass this award to Maria, and to Jen.

May God bless all of you!!!

Thanks and Grace....

2008-10-31T06:29:00.000-07:00

I want to thank each of you who sent me such an encouraging message to me on my "daddys" 13th anniversary. As I remember 13 years ago I still hear myself calling him daddy and I will forever for he is my daddy. I am not sure if you all saw the "scrapblog" that I made of us but there was on pic of him feeding me with a bottle the day I was born. When I scanned that pic yesterday morning tears just flowed as I truly miss him but know that he is surrounding just like so many that have passed on that I truly miss which are:

::my grandpa who passed when I was 5
::my father when I was 14
::my best friend Nicole(she was 16, drunk driving accident) and I was 18
::my other best friend Jessica who died of her ex murdering her and I was 19
::my cousins husband Patrick who died in Iraq when I was 24
::a dear friend from high school Orlando that passed away in Iraq a few years ago
::and of course my sweet angel in Heaven~Nehemiah
::and my sisters sweet angel in Heaven~Baby Cortes

I am sure others have passed in between but my goodness thats alot already...

~GRACE~
So this morning was a little RUFF... I woke up because I made hubby some breakfast before he left to work and when I was walking down the stairs I smelled something that would come from the "dogs." Yup BINGO my nose knows.... LOL King (our newest addition in July) has been having some problems with his stool. I won't go into details BUT I was not in a good mood after that. At the same time of making hubby something the smell was just horrible BUT hubby had put on my Christian CD (what a shock he'd rather watch TV (Praise God!!). I was NOT in a GOOD MOOD!!! Ok so a few things the Lord showed me this morning since I hadn't had my Quiet Time with my Father yet... I went to the backyard to spray down the tray that is under the kennel and I always look out to the mountains that are behind my house because you would just want to shout "GOD IS GOOD ALL THE TIME" with His beautiful scenery He gave us. Ok there was this HUGE cloud that looked like half of a angel wing!!! Then the sun was only shining right underneath the wing!! WOW it was beautiful... All I could say was "Wow Lord thats beautiful thank you..." Ok so NO MORE bad mood... Praise GOD! So I come in and wash off King and clean the room his in and then I put him back in his kennel cause I needed my Quiet Time. So I came back upstairs and I know I posted about Grace a few days ago of how I haven't came to terms of what Grace actually meant in my life. So I open my Bible and skip thru some verses and BINGO... Mercy & Grace popped on one of my devotionals since I have a Women of Faith Bible and they have like a year worth of devotionals in them.

SO AS YOU KNOW I AM PRAISING HIM!!!!

Ok now im off of here to call the vet for an appt for King and hopefully I can go to work!

Remembering my Father

2008-10-30T07:19:00.000-07:00

Today is 14 years since my father passed away. Here is his story and what has been left in my heart in these 14 years:

My father, Nestor Manuel Castro, was a father to two girls, a son, a brother, an uncle, and a husband. My father was born and raised in Puerto Rico where he met my beautiful mother. My father always had an alcoholic problem and as well with drugs. My mother and father tried for 6 years to have my sister and I even when the dr's would tell them they wouldn't be able to have children! God is good! My mother and father moved to Texas where they brought the both of us into this world. My father went to the Vietnam War which was one of the causes to his death later on in the years. We grew up going to a Catholic church which we always wanted daddy to go with us but he just went a few times.

My father didn't do things right in his life but I still love him and always forget the things that I saw in my 14 years.

I will never forget the day I found my mother sitting in my room writing a letter to him for a divorce and she just wept. She loved him but didn't love the things he did and didn't want us to suffer any longer. I remember waking up in the middle of the night listening to her weeping and I asked her "Mommy what's the matter?" I had already knew just because of so many years of seeing my mother suffer to his alcohol and drug problem.

The next day when we got home daddy was gone with some of his things and the house felt so empty. This was in 1993 but daddy still loved mommy very much even with having to do such a hard decision of separating our family. The divorce was final sometime the end of 1993.

Daddy got introuble for some reason and has in jail. I remember going to see my dad at the jail and just wanting him to come home. He always told my mom, sister and I that he loved us so much. I know my father loved us so much he just had a problem.

A few months after being in jail we get a call that daddy is sick. We find out he has cancerous tumors in his lungs that are spreading seeds to where there were two in his brain. They surgically removed the 2 tumors in his brain and thanks to our Heavenly Father those two where NOT cancerous!

After the brain surgery daddy started losing his memory. We were in the VA hospital one day for some reason and I went with my mom and sat right next to him and when I got up to use the restroom he asked my mom "who is that?" When my mother told me this it was so hard for me to understand as a 14 year old. Mind you I did not have a relationship with my Lord & Savior.

My father passed away on October 30, 1994 of cancer. The cancer had taken over and with him going to the Vietnam War he was diagnosed with Agent Orange.

May you rest in peace daddy... I love you!

Some thoughts...

2008-10-29T08:25:00.000-07:00

I know I haven't blogged in a few days but my heart seems to be "blah." Seems im a little distorted I guess you can say... I have been thinking alot and being in prayer and feeling anxious about several things.

::Today is the day that Stellan will be born and I will praise Him and Rejoice for the MckMamma Family and pray that the Lord will give Stellan a strong heart and that he will be healed in Jesus Name. Amen!

::There is something that I am waiting for but I can't place it on here but I am waiting patiently (no its not a + pregnancy test... I mean I do want one don't get me wrong but this is something else) I will let ya know laters... Just say a little prayer that the Lord will open or close the door!

::Yesterday was our 10th year anniversary of us being together. Which means the day he came home from Korea due to the military and we met! Soooo awesome....

::I am going to start charting my cycles, etc....

::At church my pastor's sermon has been about Grace. This is something I am really having a hard time with but in time I will be able to know about His grace.

::I am trying to let go of jealousy, bitterness, and disgrace in my heart.

::My devotion this morning was in Isaiah 54:1 and a few other verses in Isaiah but this is the main one that spoke to me and I hope it speaks to others as well.

Sing, O barren woman,
you who never bore a child;
burst into song, shout for joy,
you who were never in labor;
because more are the children of the desolate woman
than of her who has a husband," says the LORD.

Lord you are my Redeemer and I love you!

I Will Lift My Eyes

2008-10-24T09:47:00.000-07:00

This morning as I woke up I put on the my Christian radio station and the song was by Bebo Norman -- "I Will Lift My Eyes" and as I heard it its exactly what I needed to hear.... The lyrics explain it all:

God, my God, I cry out Your beloved needs you now God be near, calm my fear And take my doubt Your kindness is what pulls me up Your love is all that draws me in Chorus:I will lift my eyes to the Maker Of the mountains I can’t climb I will lift my eyes to the Calmer Of the oceans raging wild I will lift my eyes to the Healer Of the hurt I hold inside I will lift my eyes, lift my eyes to You God, my God, let Mercy sing Her melody over me God, right here all I bring Is all of me Your kindness is what pulls me up Your love is all that draws me in Chorus:‘Cause You are and You were and You will be forever The Lover I need to save me ‘Cause You fashioned the earth and You hold it together, God So hold me now

Just by listening to this song this morning the Lord is showing me that he is truly near, that He is helping me calm my fears of everything in my life, that He is helping me stop doubting, I will lift my eyes to the Maker because the mountains that come in my life I can not climb without HIM!!!! He is my Healer and He will take the hurt I have inside... And the rest just self explains itself...

I thank my Lord, my Maker, my Healer, my God, His Mercy, His Kindness, and The Love He gives.... He will hold my heart together even when if feels as its crumbling inside....

I love you Lord!

Wow already 7 months...

2008-10-22T09:25:00.000-07:00

As I drove past a sign that pops up the date and time I realized that its 10-22 which is 7 months since I miscarried my precious little angel... I still remember that day like it was just yesterday. The dream that was shattered but with God I can move on and keep dreaming and claiming in His name that one day I will be able to feel the joy of morning sickness again, the kicking that I didn't get to feel with Nehemiah, the growth of my belly, and the first cry out of our precious baby the Lord will bring us one day. I have learned that this is a growing period of my life that He wants to strengthen my walk with Him. Ever since the loss of Nehemiah I won't lie but I have felt as if I've fallen away from my walk with the Lord, but I have realized that the more I fall away the worse I will get. I am fasting coffee & any soda for 40 days and going to Him every morning. Today is my 3rd day and I feel so uplifted. As I remember a few days ago this scripture was said either on the Christian radio or an email or somewhere and it spoke to me.

At this, Job got up and tore his robe and shaved his head. Then he fell to the ground in worship and said: "Naked I came from my mother's womb, and naked I will depart. The LORD gave and the LORD has taken away; may the name of the LORD be praised." Job 1:20-21

I will stand in my faith, trust, put on my armor of God and MOVE ON!

Priceless...

2008-10-19T16:35:00.000-07:00

Ok so tell me if this pic is priceless OR what??? So this is King our pitbull... Yes we have a pitbull and no he is NOT aggresive! He is a good puppy and well he was only about 2 months here. He is now 4 1/2 months and is about 45 lbs. so this pic is of us when I was driving to puppy socialization classes and he only wanted to sit behind me. LOL he is a pain... He is my baby boy though...

Priceless....

P.S. don't look at my white arm! LOL

Still....

2008-10-18T13:00:00.000-07:00

I am still feeling down... Thanks to all of you who have left me an encouraging message... I truly appreciate them all... Today I actually counted how many pregnant ladies and how many newborns I saw. 4 pregnant ladies and 2 beautiful newborns... The JOY that each mother had on their faces and I am sure the look they saw from my face wasn't very pretty as I want to be happy for them. I feel as if I can't control these emotions that run thru my head. Sometimes I wonder if people watch my face when im places and see pregnant ladies or newborns...

Lord forgive me! Ahhhh its that rollercoaster feeling again and also the feeling of walking away little by little from my walk with my Lord & Savior.

Please keep me in your prayers.

The pill IS working!

2008-10-17T11:37:00.000-07:00

So I have been on Provera for 13 days today and I am supposed to finish taking them on the 14th day which would be tomorrow and well I just received my monthly 2 days early. I spoke to the nurse and she thinks its okay for me to get it a few days early and says that its a good thing that the pills are helping me regulate! I was hoping for it NOT to come and have a BFP (Big Fat Positive) test on Sunday but well it's not His timing... Maybe im feeling a little down because of my hormones...

I will praise Him for allowing this pill to help me regulate and hopefully get a BFP in the next couple of months...

When will I find peace and joy?

2008-10-17T11:31:00.001-07:00

It's been almost 7 months now since my angel baby has went to Heaven. In my heart I feel so empty with words especially when I know that I should be in prayer. Why do I feel so down? Why do I feel happy at times and then something or someone just brings me down again? Why do I let me feelings get hurt so bad? Why does someone elses pregnancy hurt me? Why can I just be happy for them? I am so lost with words.... Sometimes I sit and wonder if I will ever find peace and joy for others...

I guess this comes with time of grieving after a miscarriage.... I know im not alone but I do feel alone...

Lord please help me get out of this cloud that seems to creep up to me everytime I feel as if all is well BOOM something or someone says irritates the crap out of me... I know im not perfect, I have feelings and emotions because im only human, but Lord please help me. I don't want to hurt any longer I just want to be happy.... I leave all of this in your hands!

Ok I vented!

Amanda's Candle for Nehemiah

2008-10-16T11:19:00.000-07:00

Amanda is one of my Sisters in Christ that I met on Cafemom around the time I lost Nehemiah. She has been a blessing and I thank the Lord for blessing me with her. We both went thru miscarriages in March. Mine was March 22nd and hers was March 26th. She named her angel baby in Heaven~Noah Joel. We both know Nehemiah & Noah are together rejoicing with our Lord & Savior and we can't wait to be able to meet them one day when its our time. The candle I lit (picture on my post from yesterday) was for all of the angel babies in Heaven.

She lit a candle for Nehemiah. Thank you Amanda...

Blessings to you and your family!

Beautiful Creations

2008-10-15T19:19:00.000-07:00

I work next to 2 ladies that started a new project in their store. It's a machine that places pictures, words, poems, etc... on crystal. When I saw them I just fell inlove with the beautiful creations they had made since they are promoting this new "toy" in their business. I know that it was made with love and I know as they made the 2 things I wanted Nehemiah was able to touch their hearts.

This is a ornament for our Christmas Tree but right now its hanging on my husband & wife silhouette on my dresser. I found this picture of an baby angel on a cloud with a halo and stretching. How magnificient of how our baby angels may look in Heaven.... It says Nehemiah on the top and on the bottom it says "In the arms of our Heavenly Father on March 22, 2008." If anyone is interested let me know and I can get you one made and I will let you know the prices.

The other creation is a necklace of my ultrasound of Nehemiah when he was "active" in my womb. This was my first ultrasound where the heartbeat was 134. The crystal they used is shaped just like your ultrasound comes out on paper. Amazing... I wore it today for the 1st time.

These gifts came in handy at the right time!

Thanks Darlene & Nicole!!!

You Light Up My Life

2008-10-15T18:51:00.000-07:00

Here is my candle I lit for my precious angel in Heaven~Nehemiah. As I sat and watched the flame all I could think of was "I wonder what Nehemiah thought of all those beautiful candles on in rememberance of us angels."

All I could think of was the song "You Light Up My Life" that was sung to us at our wedding when we lit our unity candle. How the Lord has lit up my life with salvation, my husband, and a perfect little angel in Heaven! How the words go "You give me hope to carry on." Amazing how a song can just melt your heart into pieces.

Lord help me as I struggle each day and try to walk next to you. Thanks to all these Sisters in Christ that you have put in my path. Thank you Lord that today we can all come together as mothers to angels in Heaven and be able to be in silence. I love you Lord. You are so worthy. In Jesus Name, Amen.

This 2nd candle is from my cousin Melina (thank you Melina for texting me your candles).

My Mom's Candle

2008-10-15T12:06:00.001-07:00

Since my mom has been in the hospital with my grandma she read my email to light a candle at 7 p.m. tonight to remember our angels.

She lighted one a day earlier since she didn't know when she would be home. Thank to our Heavenly Father grandma will be home today to light a candle for our angels!

Here is my mom's candle from yesterday that I edited...

Wave a Light Today!

2008-10-15T11:59:00.000-07:00

As I sit here at work and think of this special day of being able to light a candle for our angels in Heaven I just think of all our angels poking there heads out of the clouds to see all the bright lights from the candles and how excited they are knowing that we are remembering all of them today! I will keep each of you in my prayers tonight as I light my candles. May everyone feel Gods comfort for an hour.

I love you Nehemiah - March 22, 2008

I love you Baby Cortes - August 22, 2008 (my sister has an angel awaiting her)

And to all my friends with angels in Heaven I love all of your angels as well....

XOXOXOXOXOXO precious angels....

He is Merciful!

2008-10-15T11:50:00.000-07:00

Well the results came in from the 2nd scan they did on my Abuela (grandma in Spanish) and there is NO blood clot and there was NEVER a blood clot. Hmmmmm who read the 1st results?? Ok so she is going home today and is feeling better already. She has episodes of fainting because of her blood sugar level since she has diabeties but has had a few strokes.

My mom called and the tone of her voice was estatic!!! I love seeing/hearing Christ in her....

I thank you all for lifting up my Abuela in your prayers!

Lord God I praise You for working your miracle! In Jesus Christ name, Amen!

He prepared me...

2008-10-13T20:22:00.000-07:00

Today was a good and quiet day... I was feeling alright while at work and when I got home I just felt down. With having gone thru a miscarriage I usually feel this way every now and then. It's a really odd feeling even though. It's like something is wrong in my heart but I just don't know how to explain what I feel. I just want to be by myself and if I cry I cry and if I just want to be quiet then so be it. Well today was that day when I got home. I started cleaning around the house and then hubby came home and I just ran upstairs for some peace and quiet (with the dogs). I went to lay down in bed just to read the Bible and my puppy decided he wanted to be up on the bed with his mommy. He is HUGE (40 lbs.) and acts like a baby. So I let him and it was if he could feel how my heart was feeling. He laid next to me and just stayed there until it was bed time. I got up and put them in their beds and came back upstairs to get ready for the night. My cell phone rang as I lay in bed to read Ecclesiastes (sp?). It was my Mom and she sounded tired. She tells me that my grandmother is in the hospital. This is something that happens every so often because she is a diabetic and has had a few strokes. She mentioned a blood clot in one of her lungs and right there I knew the Lord had started to prepare me for this. Isn't God amazing at how he prepares you to hear something?! He has done this to me more than once and I praise Him. I knew in my heart when I got home something was just not right! Thank you Lord for preparing me and keeping all of us in Your arms.

Not Me Monday!

2008-10-13T13:28:00.000-07:00

So this is something new I am starting thanks to MckMama who I just love reading her daily blogs. She is about to deliver Baby Stellan here in just 2 weeks. Check out her blog and please pray for Baby Stellan!

So here is my Not Me Monday...

I did not stop by Church's Chicken on my home to buy corn on the cob so that I can use it for my Pot Roast on Saturday!

I did not just go Saturday morning garage selling and drive around to 5 houses and didn't find a thing! I did not just go to the last garage sale and it was one you were able to walk into the house to buy whatever she had in it. This is the truth, I did NOT buy anything!

I did not turn on the water sprinkler yesterday at about 5 p.m. and turn it off this morning at about 7 a.m.

I did not drink 5 cokes yesterday!

I did not just leave the house a mess this weekend!

Ok so this is my Not Me Monday post and I did not just sit here at work and think of everything! LOL

P.S. this is just to much fun!!! Thanks MckMama for starting this...

Oh my Friday past!

2008-10-11T18:41:00.000-07:00

Oh my I can't believe I forgot to do my Friday Blessings post! Yikes... Ok so here I go... This past week was quiet BUT blessed...

Saturday - a blessed one (I can't remember what I did)

Sunday - OF COURSE a blessed day since I got to praise & worship & hear His word.

Monday - blessed day

Tuesday - blessed day

Wednesday - blessed day

Thursday - blessed day

Friday - My 8 yr old cocker spaniel Destiny decided Thursday night that she was in pain so I woke up early Friday morning to call the vet and get in ASAP since I had to work. I was able to get an early morning appt and they kept her to xray her and well when I saw the prices of xrays I just had to run to work and pray that I wouldn't have to pay alot. The dr called and said "she is not showing me any signs of pain" in my mind I wanted to go and woop her bootie...LOL She cried half of Thursday night! Ok so the dr thinks it may be the beginning of Artheritis (sp?)... Well she is 8 yrs old! So then she tells me to pick her up when I can and so I did hours later and my bill was $50.00 since they found infection in BOTH ears! If you want a Cocker Spaniel just a reminder: Ears get infected at least every 2 months (at least my cocker does) So it was BLESSED because the Lord knows my finances and she didn't have any xrays done just the visit/ear stuff/and some other thing I can't remember. Praise God!

Ok hopefully I will jot down everyday starting oh my TODAY for next Friday! LOL...

And I want to thank each of you that comes and leaves me a sweet comment on my posts!

God bless.. Melanie

My siggy

2008-10-09T08:50:00.000-07:00

Ok so I am a member of a website and well signatures at the bottom of messages is a BIG thing on this particular website... I have been asking around to see if anyone would make me a siggy for October 15th Pregnancy Awareness Day and this nice girl made me one!! I had/have tears in my eyes now... Tears of Joy knowing my angel is in the arms of my Heavenly Father and many other little angels of my Sisters in Christ!

Here is the siggy...

I call myself a Christian!

2008-10-09T08:42:00.001-07:00

I hope everyone that is in my life will understand what it means to be a Christian. At times we take for granted what salvation is all about. When we give our life to our Lord & Savior that is not where we stop! We have to walk beside Him even when our hearts are hurt, hard, discouraged, etc. We have to be in His Word and give him praise and honor for giving us LIFE! When I say I am a Christian im not telling you to live my "religion" because I don't claim a religion, I am just a believer in Christ who is my Lord & Savior.

When I say I am a Christian...

2008-10-09T08:21:00.000-07:00

"When I say, 'I am a Christian' I'm not shouting I'm clean livin'. I'm whispering I was lost and now I'm found and forgiven. When I say, 'I am a Christian' I don't speak of this with pride. I'm confessing that I stumble and need Christ to be my guide. When I say, 'I'm a Christian' I'm not trying to be strong. I'm professing that I'm weak and need HIS strength to carry on. When I say, 'I am a Christian' I'm not bragging of success. I'm admitting I have failed and need Jesus to clean my mess. When I say, 'I am a Christian' I'm not claiming to be perfect. My flaws are far too visible but Jesus believes I am worth it. When I say, 'I'm a Christian' I still feel the sting of pain. I have my share of heartaches so I call upon His Name. When I say, 'I'm a Christian' I'm not holier than thou. I'm just a simple sinner who received Christ's good grace, some how."

I received this from Tammy Trent who is a speaker for Women of Faith and also a singer and many other things. I was able to hear her speak, sing, dance and also I was able to shake her hand at the Revolve Tour with Women of Faith. She lost her husband to a scuba accident in 2001 and since our loss of our baby I have been emailing her and she does email me back! She is a sweetheart and her heart for Christ shines!

She sings beautiful and if you ever get to see her in concert or conference you will have a blast with her when she starts to dance and you will also cry to hear her testimony!!! Watch it now!! LOL I love her....

Here is a pic of her and her hubby...

What to say...

2008-10-08T19:14:00.000-07:00

Ok so today hubby came home to tell me his coworker and his wife just miscarried. After so many months of hearing how many people in my life have miscarried its just so sad. I know the Lord has a plan and His plan is for the best, but at the same time not knowing this couple and since my hubby just got promoted it's now my job to send them flowers, card, and go see them. Please keep me and the family in prayer. I don't know anything but their last name. I will find out everything else tomorrow and hopefully go and see her. Please pray that the words that come out of my mouth will be from the Lord and that I will be able to share my testimony. Thank you friends... I will update after I go see her.

Awesome website

2008-10-08T14:14:00.000-07:00

I found this website of a friend of mine that lost her baby this year as well due to "stillborn."

This video is beautiful and made me cry...

I spoke with my child

At peace and a lil lost....

2008-10-08T13:54:00.000-07:00

Ok so the title says it all but I will explain...

::The feeling at peace is because well my due date was on Monday and I can honestly say I thought my day was going to be rough and thanks to our Heavenly Father and all the prayers from all of you I was able to get thru my day. I thought more of my little angel in Heaven knowing he/she is doing well rejoicing and loving it! (See you one day my angel)

::The feeling lost is because I don't know what the Lord has planned out and well I won't know. I started Provera on Sunday and they are settling well. I also started back on Prenatals and those are doing well too. I haven't been able to sleep right lately and I am not sure why. I feel in my heart I need to get on my knees more and pray harder.

Let me let you in a little bit of what I had been praying for:

A few days ago I prayed that the Lord would give me more of a "hunger" for Him. Well yesterday when I woke up and went into the bathroom to brush my teeth I heard it clear as day "You want to be hungry for Me, but you aren't in My Word." WHOA!!! BOOM!!! Can you say speechless?!

Ok so I will admit I haven't been in His Word or in much prayer and I know I need to. I have been praying for His Will and what He wants me to do as a "career." Since we retire in less than 5 yrs. I want to have a good job. Hmmmm I wonder where that will be.... Alot of careers have been in my head: working with disabled children, hospital, clinic, government job, home for teenagers. So that's what I've been thinking...

Well let me do some crocheting so that I can relax. God bless all of you!

Visit this blog and see...

2008-10-08T10:44:00.000-07:00

Thank you to Trying Sew Hard for sharing...

You can possibly win this beautiful Autumn set from Country Girl At Home
Check out her blog and see....

Good luck and God bless all of you!

Lots....

2008-10-05T18:39:00.000-07:00

Ok so the title is "Lots" because I have a few things to blog about and I don't know really what the title should've been so here I go....

::Saturday::

This weekend was really nice! Weather was beautiful and I was able to decorate a little bit for Thanksgiving since we don't really do anything for Halloween... We went to watch the Beverly Hills Chihuahua (sp?) and it was really cute...

::Sunday::

I love to wake up Sunday mornings and know that I am going to worship Him with my church family and give Him praise! Today's service was about Grace... I really needed to hear it too... The worship songs were so touching due to the fact that tomorrow would of been my due date. I praised the Lord and with those words "give me strength" I just worshipped Him. God is amazing and even though tomorrow may be a sad day for me I know He will be with me and I have to give Him all the Glory and Honor because what has happened was already planned out as the rest of my days are planned out because I am His child. Mommy loves you sweet angel in Heaven. I named our angel in Heaven even though we didn't know the sex yet, but my sweet cousin told me one day to name him/her and well I do know now what mothers say when they know in their heart that its a boy or girl because I honestly felt it was a boy so his name is Nehemiah (Comforted by God).

Today also marks the 1st day of being on Provera so that my cycles can get regulated! And I also started back on Prenatals and well of course the Baby Dancing has begun in FULL GEAR now! LOL

I want to thank everyone that has sent me comments and thank all my family for being so positive to me.

To God be the Glory...

Blessed Friday....

2008-10-03T13:59:00.000-07:00

Ok so im going to start this new "Blessed Friday" post!!! As I woke up this morning I was just full of so much JOY of all the blessings that has came forth this week. Thank you Lord! So I am going to just start from Saturday to Friday what blessings have came forth.

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Saturday - Woke up snuggling with hubby and went to Cracker Barrel for breakfast, watching my little cousin, S. play soccer with a very nice breeze outside and watching hubby play soccer with my little cousin, S. and another little girl on the field ;) (he needs a baby girl)

Sunday - Blessed with a beautiful wedding (renew vows) ceremony of a couple at our church that wanted their "church family" to witness and our pastor gave a little sermon on marriage

Monday - Went to my 1st appointment with a new GYN and she was very patient and explained everything very thoroughly and left with good news that we can go ahead and start to TTC again and had the rest of the day off with hubby

Tuesday - Worked and just another blessed day

Wednesday - Hubby got promoted!!! I was able to place his new rank on his uniform for the 1st time and was blessed to have my cousin A. and G. there

Thursday - Worked and another blessed day

Today (Friday) - Worked and another blessed day (TGIF)

Well I would like to keep this going for the rest of my bloggin days...

For the Lord has brought us many blessings and more to come!

I always like to close with His Word so as I went to my favorite website: BiblegatewayI typed in "blessings" and waaaaaaalaaaaa I love this verse! Thank you Lord for showing your truth!

"because of your father's God, who helps you,
because of the Almighty, [a] who blesses you
with blessings of the heavens above,
blessings of the deep that lies below,
blessings of the breast and womb." Genesis 49:25